~ Sigh ~ 😒
So the president just did a news conference on our troops over seas and then also on the coronavirus because a woman in Washington “State” died last night – I guess the first death in the United States
I don’t feel very comfortable after watching that 😒
And then someone asked … should we restrict California travel 😳🤨… what?! Oh my god!
So now …I am here in Northern California … I am 47, I just battled breast cancer – I am still not the strongest… I literally just finished that about 6/7 months ago… I do still have medical issues caused by it.
So I’m a little nervous. Nothing I can do … but I am nervous more and more. I know you can’t think like that…
But on the other side of that, sometimes you have to…
What IF I die? I already went through this with the cancer … but it was different …
So what do I want?
I want my last words to be known… I want to make sure those I love and care for will be ok, and I want them to know how I feel always. (I always say anyway, but I mean more in depth with lesson information that I haven’t taught yet, you never have enough time to teach everything!) and I want them to be strong!! I do trust my parenting.
And cremation would probably be fine… cheaper … and I get a discount so won’t be so bad… what an incentive huh? But reality wise.
I don’t want people sitting around crying and being inconsolable … I don’t want to be remembered for dying.
I want to be remembered in life… for who I was and what I meant. I want to be remembered how deeply I loved and cared. (And also how self proclaimed hilarious I can be sometimes lol… even if you don’t think so- I did ❤️)
So when I die… I want a banquet… with my favorite foods and drinks… and I already have a playlist of music that I want playing in the background… my favorite color is purple – I want white table cloths and glass vases with purple flowers 💐
I want those I love to remember funny stories about when they were with me, or funny things I did, or quirky little mannerisms …and I want them to remember how I made them feel and how much I honestly loved them and always will.
And then lastly for now… I love magnets … I collect magnets … I keep them on white boards and they look like art 🖼 … every time I went anywhere … I got a “place” magnet from that place I went to… all my magnets are “place” magnets…
Magnets are cheap(ish) … but any time any of my friends go anywhere and ask me if they can bring me back anything… my answer is always “place magnet”! I love magnets that are from different places ❤️
So I am catholic… I would want for each guest and loved one to receive one prayer card (those are special to me and remind me of my grandparents and the old ways)
But I would also like each guest to get a magnet… but this one won’t be a place magnet … it will be a me magnet lol … maybe a photo – I will have to pick one… and then my info … date of birth and death… just for remembrance from time to time – I always want to be there.
Anyway so that’s all… I will have to write this all down with specific instructions lol
And sorry… I’m at a funeral home, I’m kinda old and have medical things, and just watched that press conference lol
Don’t panic he says … not panicking – but little nervous.
On lunch break… still have things to do… and oh yeah…
The phone rang – and it was that Maintenence guy lol… umm ok… so he asked me if we had any services going on today…
Uhhhh no – better not – I am the only one here!!! And no one informed me of anything lol
So he says oh ok… and it’s just you?
Uhhh yeah
Ok well I have to go here, here and here – and you will probably be my last job so I will swing by about 2 or 3.
Ok I will be here lol
So that was nice for the update of when he is coming… he has just never done that since I started so 🤨… lol … sorry just cautious – old habits die hard
Alright well enough of all this… I wanna get all my stuff done so tmrw be for whatever else I can get ahead of.
I will most likely be back later lol ✌️
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