California, magnets & work

~ Sigh ~ 😒

So the president just did a news conference on our troops over seas and then also on the coronavirus because a woman in Washington “State” died last night – I guess the first death in the United States

I don’t feel very comfortable after watching that 😒

And then someone asked … should we restrict California travel 😳🤨… what?! Oh my god!

So now …I am here in Northern California … I am 47, I just battled breast cancer – I am still not the strongest… I literally just finished that about 6/7 months ago… I do still have medical issues caused by it.

So I’m a little nervous. Nothing I can do … but I am nervous more and more. I know you can’t think like that…

But on the other side of that, sometimes you have to…

What IF I die? I already went through this with the cancer … but it was different …

So what do I want?

I want my last words to be known… I want to make sure those I love and care for will be ok, and I want them to know how I feel always. (I always say anyway, but I mean more in depth with lesson information that I haven’t taught yet, you never have enough time to teach everything!) and I want them to be strong!! I do trust my parenting.

And cremation would probably be fine… cheaper … and I get a discount so won’t be so bad… what an incentive huh? But reality wise.

I don’t want people sitting around crying and being inconsolable … I don’t want to be remembered for dying.

I want to be remembered in life… for who I was and what I meant. I want to be remembered how deeply I loved and cared. (And also how self proclaimed hilarious I can be sometimes lol… even if you don’t think so- I did ❤️)

So when I die… I want a banquet… with my favorite foods and drinks… and I already have a playlist of music that I want playing in the background… my favorite color is purple – I want white table cloths and glass vases with purple flowers 💐

I want those I love to remember funny stories about when they were with me, or funny things I did, or quirky little mannerisms …and I want them to remember how I made them feel and how much I honestly loved them and always will.

And then lastly for now… I love magnets … I collect magnets … I keep them on white boards and they look like art 🖼 … every time I went anywhere … I got a “place” magnet from that place I went to… all my magnets are “place” magnets…

Magnets are cheap(ish) … but any time any of my friends go anywhere and ask me if they can bring me back anything… my answer is always “place magnet”! I love magnets that are from different places ❤️

So I am catholic… I would want for each guest and loved one to receive one prayer card (those are special to me and remind me of my grandparents and the old ways)

But I would also like each guest to get a magnet… but this one won’t be a place magnet … it will be a me magnet lol … maybe a photo – I will have to pick one… and then my info … date of birth and death… just for remembrance from time to time – I always want to be there.

Anyway so that’s all… I will have to write this all down with specific instructions lol

And sorry… I’m at a funeral home, I’m kinda old and have medical things, and just watched that press conference lol

Don’t panic he says … not panicking – but little nervous.

On lunch break… still have things to do… and oh yeah…

The phone rang – and it was that Maintenence guy lol… umm ok… so he asked me if we had any services going on today…

Uhhhh no – better not – I am the only one here!!! And no one informed me of anything lol

So he says oh ok… and it’s just you?

Uhhh yeah

Ok well I have to go here, here and here – and you will probably be my last job so I will swing by about 2 or 3.

Ok I will be here lol

So that was nice for the update of when he is coming… he has just never done that since I started so 🤨… lol … sorry just cautious – old habits die hard

Alright well enough of all this… I wanna get all my stuff done so tmrw be for whatever else I can get ahead of.

I will most likely be back later lol ✌️