Court stuff

So I am panicking just a little bit tonight… they set the court dates … first date is April 3rd… if we don’t agree – which we won’t … he doesn’t want to give me anything at all… and brutally beats me up in court with lies and my lawyer does nothing – she is basically just there so I have a lawyer on the books – but he pays her so little it doesn’t even cover her fees so she does nothing and I can not afford. I can barely afford anything as it is.

So anyway… trial date set for April 13th… that will finalize everything. And then my lawyer informs me she won’t be available… so she won’t be there – he has legal representation that he pays for himself… and I will be there alone and not understanding anything to do with the courts.

I am terrified!!! I told her please reschedule that but I don’t think they will… he wants to bury me… this isn’t fair – I do nothing to him I just wanna get away from him and I just need a minute to stand on my feet – I am trying so hard – I have 2 jobs and I’m looking for a 3rd!!!

That’s not fair… 21 year marriage and I walk away with just nothing and no help.

I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I don’t understand this stuff at all. I would never have done this to him… I never took the kids away from him, I never went after him… I’m trying to get away. I’m exhausted. I’m just trying to survive.

I’m scared. I’m really scared – and I don’t find this fair and how am I not going to cry??? It’s gonna make me cry… great.

All by myself 😭💔 ok. This is just not right

Look how broken this court system is to allow this. So I am in panic. Cause whew this is gonna be a lot, all by myself.

I am overwhelmed tonight.