Learning to prepare…

It’s late and pouring out currently … when is spring? I am dying for spring already!!

Tonight my daughter went to Chuck-E-Cheese with a girlfriend (was her girlfriends brothers birthday – her parents let her take a friend)

While she did that, I did laundry at the laundromat…

I picked her up a little while later. Luckily we made it home before it started pouring. I would not have been happy if it rained all over the freshly cleaned, dry, folded clothes. So I am very thankful for that.

Also… I’ve been thinking about something tonight. Been doing a lot of reading.

So when I do these job interviews – I do a lot of homework and go confident… I do pretty good with it…

I haven’t really spoken about my divorce much… I want to but I am just silenced in this area completely… even here… is hard but I’m going to have to start figuring this out.

I’m not sure what to do… so maybe is best if I just do my homework on this matter too.

This is going to be my next big battle as we are about to go into trial. Whew! I am terrified and nervous and do not trust the courts for protection whatsoever.

I am confident I can do anything if I am prepared. I have been letting my lawyer do everything but even though he is court ordered to pay her – but he does not, so she doesn’t do much to help me at all.

So it’s going to be on me to do this. I’m scared.

Ok… so… grow up – don’t fear. It will be ok. I’m going to do some homework on this and figure it out myself.

Fear, exhaustion and emotions – I am going to have to put that aside completely. Just go by the facts period.

All he does is tell lies and sling mud any chance he gets to anyone who will listen (courts and people we knew) and I have been quiet – that’s what my lawyer tells me to do. I do everything she tells me to do and follow all rules. But it’s been horrific so far.

If I want something… I’m going to have to do homework and prepare.

Ok I can do this. I’m pretty sure 😳🙏 please dear god let me get through this ok. 🙏

I am terrified. But whatever – I’m going to have to get through it.

Let’s see how strong my strength really is. 😳

I think another one of my lessons is don’t depend on anyone to do anything for you – make sure you know how to handle for yourself. Prepare yourself always!! 🤨 … I don’t like this lesson

Ok well it’s late… I gotta get to bed

Gnite ✌️