Do you sometimes wonder if life puts people or things in your life when is supposed to, because you are going to need?

I don’t like to need – I only want to want

https://youtu.be/ru3gH27Fn6E?si=J3Lw05Xdg93WLANT 🫶❤️

One of my flock I love to be around!! She is me – but older – and we laugh and laugh … you could have worst day ever, either me or her… and nothing will cheer up – but then when speak or hang out – all is right with the world and is peace and calm and funny – hilarious ❤️ I am completely at ease with her and she feels like family ❤️ we have long phone convos too just like family – I love her … she brightens my world ☀️ I can just “be”

https://youtu.be/4gAsPT-vgeM?si=LprRwj3vWL4A6ksg

Meant as friend (family), nothing else. But that’s perfect song for her ❤️☀️❤️ I love her very much ❤️🫶❤️

I would not know her if her husband didn’t die.

So in a way… he died when he did for her to have me, and me to have her 😮

And then…

Ok so … I am guarded if a man wants to come close. Yup!

https://youtu.be/nIlKBr9Nr8A?si=6M6O2vkdv9FFCyhn

Unless you approach slow – but that never happens. No one ever takes time.

https://youtu.be/otCpCn0l4Wo?si=flRgXaOOl494Aijh

I wanna see what the motive is and if go too fast, I can not see your motive and I am highly protective!! HIGHLY

I am always kind person but VERY protective

I have my kids, I have my inner circle ⭕️ I am happy – I don’t want that taken away.

Anyway… I have hard shell of crab 🦀

You have to get past the shell first lol

Anyway… guy is not perfect and I totally have not really gotten to know him… only somewhat…

I try not to let down guard because I want to know first… but he is ALL in completely

That is just how it always is… but he is different

With me, he is kind and funny … I’m not sure if he is insecure or not, because he also doesn’t know me well either

But … he treats me EXCEPTIONALLY well 😮 …even though I try to fight against it lol 🤷‍♀️

I just wanna be careful he is not trying to blind me.

On Friday, my whole entire town was at a stand still because our population has grown fast and the city planner SUCKS – you’re FIRED!!!

I could not get across town to save my life … supposably there was a malfunction in railroad – shut down the whole town!!! Omg

Well I take another way and they doing construction and it’s shut down to one lane

Omg!!! Fuckin open it up in situation like this!! Move your shit! … or plan the shit right! One tiny thing brought the town to its fricken knees – that’s bullshit! Maybe fricken handle your job – not a very smart city if you ask me!

Lol … I was on the phone with guy when all this was occurring 😄😄

And the Boston came out 😮😄 … well now you know how I drive lol 💋

He just laughed and said “I do hear the Boston” 😄🤷‍♀️

https://youtu.be/x-64CaD8GXw?feature=shared

Just when I drive or I’m mad lol 😄 is same rush

💋 when it’s in your blood 🩸 ❤️ ☘️

Anyway he said what you want for breakfast and coffee?

I said you don’t have to do that (I had been fasting for the blood tests)

And he gave me a huge text lol

About how he wouldn’t offer if didn’t want to do, also knows I am hard shelled… that he likes me and wants to do for me and all that

So he was waiting for me after my test and he had breakfast and coffee for me – which actually was brightest part of day. ☀️

Anyway – he is always being thoughtful and says things that are beyond sweet

I feel a slight similarity with him so we see

But then ya know – I went and did blood tests Friday

They came back

I am low B12, low Vitamin D, low potassium, elevated TSH (thyroid) and white blood cells are up

Doctor asked me if I recently had any infection – no I have not

So I’m a little scared 🤫

And guy… he be so caring and sweet with me and all this medical things, he always asks if I would like him to come with me – no that’s too close and that’s too deep of emotions so no.

But he is supportive and kind and never judgmental … I don’t want to let go yet- too deep not ready. I need slow.

But then he’s aways so amazing to me and so kind hearted – so ok I won’t run just yet. We see

He doesn’t know what my results were yet – I do … I don’t know if I want to say yet.

I am still absorbing and seeing – I go for breast tests on Tuesday 😩

If I say something I don’t want you to constantly check on my medical – I’m gonna need my mind away from that. It instantly brings emotions so let just be easy does it.

So… I have more to tell – but he’s taking me to dinner tonight – my daughter is at homecoming all beautiful 😍 ❤️

And Doby sees me put clothes on during weekend and he knows I am going out 😄😄❤️

Also on a funny thing – we close to Halloween and since she had homecoming and I busy – I ordered Taco Bell … only to be delivered by :

😄😄 sorry I always think of Dracula 🧛‍♀️

I have more to tell you about though – but later – reminder for me – daughter and humanity

I’m supposed to be getting ready 💋 I am slow woman on weekends

Bye for now

https://youtu.be/oKOtzIo-uYw?si=G-0X9_LkD2XQ6qRw