Essential Personnel

Everyday gets a little more and more frightening… I try to refocus myself on other things or talk about something else OTHER THAN this virus!! But that’s becoming impossible!!

I just received a phone call from my funeral home… we were just deemed essential personnel… so we have to stay operational to a degree…

ALL funeral arrangements or memorials are now on hold until further notice… ONLY one staff member in building permitted at a time… so I will be covering the weekends myself… and possibly take any extra days should anyone fall ill…

IF I myself become ill, I need to notify them immediately and not come to work.

Ok… whew. I got this. I get to still work… am I afraid? Little bit… but is moments I can somewhat have a glimmer of a life?

I won’t have anything to do… or very much I can imagine. I will be disinfecting every single area for sure!! It’s going to be really quiet!! I will still have my window to the world there ? But it’s scary.

I didn’t expect it to become this crazy. I’m really not sure what to think.

I will be locked away from others and still have a job – so that’s good… but also scary how everything is happening.

Everyday more and more restrictions are coming down.

I think of all the events so far this year…

I just got this funeral home job back at the beginning of February before all this started going crazy… before that I just had the school… thank god I had gotten another job… and again we are now deemed essential personnel … so I can still work.

We are just really giving up life as we knew it. Now I am scared. Not scared to work… but scared what’s happening and scared of what will be on the other side of all this. And will the world be ok?? I want to believe yes… and I do think eventually be ok… but I’m worried about all the deaths to possibly come.

Hope you are all keeping safe and well. Hope you are surviving.