So far so good

So my week going to be really crazy busy – but also really good mostly.

Thursday my daughter and I go to house sit… I will get to see what’s in the box… the person I am house sitting for placed a box in his night stand that he says has something “for me” in it… I am curious. So Thursday my mystery will be solved on that part!!

Then Friday … a new lawyer is interested in taking my divorce case … I was referred by someone influential … so I am nervous with this too…

I am scared of the courts no matter how much I try not to be… been very traumatized by them… and on top of that… the marriage was abusive and when I first left – he sent massive amounts of horrible harassing text messages that are all in the file 😢💔… they are REALLY bad and mortifies me is even in the court record. He calls me all kinds of names and attacks me in messages 💔 they are harassing and also has personal photos… I did NOT respond to any of the messages (I stayed quiet) and there are over 300 of these messages… this lawyer will have to see all that… I have to bring all my files.

And I have to NOT cry… I have to tell him events – but I have to NOT cry… not really sure how I can do that… to even speak of any of that is very emotional to me so I avoid that… that way I don’t cry… here I will have to face it… show that file, tell story … so I need to keep composure 😳 … I want to hope I can… and I’m tired … but I don’t know if I actually can?? Maybe? And I’m not sure how much I believe anyone could help me… I really don’t believe in that at this point… and I’m not sure this lawyer will even want this case? This will be my 3rd lawyer 😢

First took money and ran, second one (current) I am at her mercy… she bullies me and threatens me constantly

My influential person has now stepped in … and this lawyer is seeing me because of them… but I don’t have a lot of hope or trust in anything to do with court system, or lawyers. But I will keep an open mind and see what happens – I just don’t expect much. But I’ll give it a go and see what happens – I just don’t want to cry or feel that stuff – it’s hard and I’m trying to move forward.

So whatever – that’s on Friday… then Friday night family night… so that will help after all those emotions and things

Saturday I am working at the funeral home… they are teaching me all the ropes…

And Sunday I am also working the funeral home – but ALL BY MYSELF 😳 that should be fun… I will not watch any horror movies before Sunday!!! Lol (not that I ever watch ANY, but definitely NONE before Sunday!) … and no ghost stories or paranormal tv shows – do not want to freak myself out and then go be all alone at a funeral home lol … I’m excited though- this should be fun!!

Today I saw and watched a documentary on Salem, Massachusetts 🤨 Lol – was about supposed hauntings from 1692 witch trials – I will not be watching anything like that before Sunday – documentary or not. I did not know I would be alone on Sunday until after I watched that lol

Ok so … Thursday’s the surprise box… Friday is the lawyer… Saturday is learning the ropes… and Sunday is all by myself 😳 lol …

A lot is happening 😮 … really fast … so alright, curious and excited how all is going to go.

Hopefully all goes ok. It should…

I have a surprise box of something so that’s good thing… I’m curious… and lawyer going to see me – so that’s a good thing too- can’t be any worse that currently is…

Then excited about Saturday… and Sunday … so I really do not see any bad things except going over everything in file with lawyer – but that’s only within my own self … so I can do it. He’s willing to see if he can help me or wants to take case … so that’s good – I have a small chance? All other stuff seems to be on a good forward track!!

Hopefully! 🙏 … life been going pretty good lately… busy but pretty good ❤️

If I can finish out my week really strong I will be so thrilled ❤️

Gnite ✌️