On a side note…

Remember the other night I mentioned someone who was close to my grandmother wants to speak to me?

I believe it’s a woman? And she’s trying really hard to get in contact with me for some reason. ??

I don’t know what this is about? What does she want to say? What could she say?

I guess I won’t know unless I speak to her. But do I want to?

It could be healing? I don’t know? She is putting in a lot of effort because family members keep saying she wants to talk to me.

I know her name… like I said I believe it’s a woman? But my grandmothers side of the family is Lithuanian … and I am not familiar with the male and female names… it looks like a female name to me? The last name I don’t recognize as a family name but my grandmothers side had lots of secrets and people I didn’t know existed. The last name is definitely Lithuanian.

I googled the name, but didn’t find much.

It is a distraction from my focus at this moment, and I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not? I don’t trust, so I’m trying to figure out what I want to do with this.

I think I should let life direct it, I believe life is trying to teach me something… and I have been resisting.

Maybe this is life’s way of helping me let go?

And I can’t live life all guarded all the time – I don’t want to live my life like that.

So I think I will see what she wants?? I can’t imagine why she wants to speak to me so badly – enough to contact other family members to get a hold of me ???

I don’t know this person or ever heard their name before. They are Lithuanian though – that last name is definitely Lithuanian.

So ok… I think I will see what this person wants 🤨 … I’ll be open… just cautious.

I am curious… but I keep thinking “curiosity killed the cat” … but a cat has 9 lives right? Lol – I guess I’m going to find out 😳