I’m back …

I had an incredible holiday with all my kids ❤️ we had the best time! Was a wonderful holiday!!

I have this thing that emails me inspiring quotes every morning… today’s quote was…

“A truly rich man is one who’s children run into his arms when his hands are empty”

The author is unknown – but makes me feel very rich and very lucky. My children do that for me ❤️

They gave me really amazing and touching presents (which they didn’t have to do! I do not expect – I just love having them) … but they made me cry with how amazing they are – and they all hugged me and didn’t let go until I did. My children are just incredible ❤️

I got them things too, but I don’t have a lot so my presents were not the greatest. Some were sentimental and some were things they wanted – little things – I wish I could give them the world. But they loved them anyway! I really did have an amazing holiday!! ❤️

Now that I’m better, every year going to be more and more amazing now!!

And then on a bright note… it’s stopped raining and we have sun!! Yay!

So that means my landlord has fixed my original place…

I went to check it out yesterday cause we want to move back – we like that place better.

Well all the rains caused tiny ants to take refuge… I had already sprayed once before all the rains started – so they were already dead…

But my daughter took one look and said “nope” lol …

So yesterday afternoon- I took it apart and started respraying and literally cleaning every single thing. This is going to take me a few days…

They were all over my kitchen counters and some candles I had in the cabinet… we had taken most stuff with us temporarily so thank god for that. But I’m excited to get our place back once I get that situated and back to normal. Gotta love the country 🤨✌️ … I do actually – I love the peace here! So it’s a trade off.

But I am going sick with spraying and cleaning – no way that’s going to happen again! Ants are not welcome!! (Or spiders – thank god not spiders lol)

And I get to do spring cleaning now so whatever… just excited to get our home back!!

On Christmas we also discovered I have a headlight out 😑… so I googled and tried to see if I can fix myself (I am a total woman) I do not know cars whatsoever … but trying to learn so let’s see how this goes …

Well I could buy the bulb and try to install myself… but it’s the drivers side front headlight … and in my car, to change that light – I would have to remove the battery first to get to it…

Well that’s not the best idea cause I don’t have tools – and this is not my forté … I don’t believe that would go well…

So I’m going to call a place this morning and see how much for them to properly fix for me.

I hate car guys cause they see “me” walk in and I feel like they think “cha-ching” $$$ … is a woman who doesn’t know cars … which is why I TRY to learn … it just isn’t my thing… but it might have to be, so we will see. Life adventure right?

Also… that guy who asked me to dinner, I said “no thank you” and explained that I might not be ready…

And he said “Well you have to eat anyway, and it’s on me. Let’s just enjoy the company, no pressure, just relaxed ok?”

So alright – I guess I can handle that. He again asked what kind of food I wanted – so I said Mexican. He gave me 4 choices of different places …

Three out of the 4, were these extravagant high class dressy restaurants.

While that’s nice and everything, I just prefer more relaxed. And I don’t feel like he has to impress me – I don’t want anyone to try to impress me… I just want to be relaxed.

So I told him I wanted the fourth one because it seemed more relaxed and we would probably enjoy more.

Plus I don’t want him spending a ton of money. He just met me at that Christmas party … slllllooowww – go slow!! Lol

So ok… this is going to be my first time going out like this. He seems like he can handle being friends and going slow … I might have to remind him here and there ? But I can do that. He seems like a very nice man.

Oh yeah… and then one of my daughters friends dad’s asked if my daughter could go to an amusement park with them on Monday. It’s bring your friends day…

I said… well I don’t have money right now to give her for anything.

Then he said… that would not be an issue… and then says would you like to come too.

I was already asleep when he sent that – so I haven’t responded to that yet. He’s a single dad

Oh my god! Well anyway… I don’t think is a good idea for me to go… I would feel bad already if he pay for my daughter … and then ME TOO??

I kinda feel like recently everyone trying to throw money at me lol … it’s not that I feel is bad… I don’t think? But I’m very careful and kinda guarded … money is the root of all evil right? So just be careful.

I don’t want to use anyone for what they can do for me, and I don’t want for anyone to try to impress me with what they have… that does not impress me.

But for him to pay for my daughter is one thing… I still feel kind of weird about that… but it’s for her… she does deserve to be free in youth and enjoy things.

I don’t want to feel at mercy, obligated or that I owe.

I am trying to do things myself and heal with things. I don’t trust people or intentions.

So I’m not really sure what to think with this one. I think would be ok for my daughter to go… but for me … I think that would be too much. And I have a lot to situate and do… maybe I’m just overwhelmed ?? I don’t know.

I will have to discuss this with him.

But yeah, all in all, my year ends pretty good.

So anyway – I’m back yay!! I do love writing it out! So much comes at me, so it kinda helps me figure out.

Ok off to deal with this car issue. Let’s see how this goes. 🤨

Hope everyone had a good/safe holiday. ❤️✌️