Pajama Day tmrw

Ok … gifts again today… aww 🥰… I brought candies, fudge and an ornament for everyone. I like ornaments because they can mark time or that moment… after Christmas you put away until next year and then when you take it back out … you remember ❤️ nice memories attached to ornaments “usually”. So yeah, I gave an ornament – and yummy things ✌️

I have to go to the store 🤨 … it is rainy today – I don’t want to deal with Christmas shoppers. I am not a big fan of crowds. But I have to go to the store and buy something 🤨

I have to buy winter pajamas that I can wear to school 🤨… that I will only ever wear on actual “pajama day” … I don’t have pajamas … I wear a T-shirt … I am under like 50,000 blankets so I don’t want to be all dressed – pants at night make me uncomfortable and then I can’t sleep… I need freedom in winter under all those covers

So I have to buy pajamas… that I can wear to school… I have to be dressed like that tmrw… 😳

Yes be comfortable – but also weird being all around in public wearing pajamas 🤨 – not my thing… I like looking good and being put together or looking that way.

I will be embarrassed little bit – but I’m going to look for the most normal looking pajamas I can find.

Today… school ended and some parents were late doing pick up… I do not mind – I love spending time with these kids – I 100% enjoy them!!! They bring a smile to my face every single day!!! I love hearing their thoughts, they come to me about things in their lives etc … they are ALL amazing kids – we really have the best group of kids!!

I am speaking of my high schoolers …

There’s this one girl… she’s beautiful… she has street smarts … and she is actually really smart… however… I think she’s embarrassed to be smart or good ?

I believe in her so I am kind of a cheerleader for her… I enjoy her a lot… she’s a good girl. She could be a triple threat – beautiful, street smart and school smart – if I can get her to believe in herself and not be embarrassed? She’s young – freshman … I know she doesn’t have greatest role models, and she is from a poor area… could be considered “the hood”

I know she wants to be liked and accepted.

Today we talking and she say some girls told her the other day, they were afraid of her… this girl is not scary…

But as she tells me the story, she her mother said “smile more”

She said she started smiling more and now she’s really fitting in… I’ve watched her making friends – and she’s very well liked. She has a very outgoing personality which could, maybe, scare some people, who are more on a quiet scale?

But that’s the thing – get to know someone before you judge who they are.

She told me today… that she wasn’t a very good person in general… I don’t believe that… she has a good core – that’s all you need. If you have a good core – it usually doesn’t turn bad

What I think it is… is maybe – first of all, of course, fitting in… and being a teenager now … wow what a sucky time to be a teenager!!

Here is why I say that… growing up, “my” teenage years were tough also – emotions and fitting in – finding who I was and what I believed… and yes I believe it was tougher than my parents had before me…

Well same for these kids – I didn’t have technology coming at me in all directions – I am among the last to experience growing up without the world at my fingertips. We had TV, telephones, microwaves and vcrs just came out – don’t forget Atari.

And then you have that teenage brain, figuring out emotions and who they are – it’s just seems like to me… there are just so many rules to just know nowadays !!

This generation claims to be a generation of acceptance – they all want to be accepted and respected … of course… everyone does in some way.

But then at the same time… I keep hearing all these stories about people making a mistake and then the internet comes down on them and crushes them… ummm ???

So I would think, that if the generation is so accepting of other things … instead of destroying someone …wouldn’t you put out a hand? … life is learning right? Take something from the experience and learn from it. Share opinions but also respect them of others. It is ok if you don’t agree with me. It’s an opinion

And people can have 2 different opinions – and it’s ok. If you don’t agree, that’s fine – is my opinion – you free to have your own.

I have a high school boy who said I would be considered “rebellious” lol …

He said that because I said “ I just do my own thing, you be who you want to be, I want to be who I want to be. In today’s world, Oh my god! There are so many rules and I don’t know what half the things even mean!! So whatever – it’s too much … so I just do “my own” thing. I appreciate others for who THEY are – I respect people very much. If I am wrong about something – please by all means give me information.”

But because I don’t conform to today’s society … (I can’t – way too many rules – they live so stressfully!) … but because I don’t conform – I am “rebellious” he says lol …

I don’t know if rebellious is the way I would word it… but yes I am rebellious against the strict rules of my parents generation… and then rebellious of all the stressful ways of the generation after me.

Anyway… their parents came to get them

When I said – I will see you next year… my freshman girl stopped and turned around and made a sad face, asking if she can just stay…

So yeah. I didn’t see that before – I knew she was smart – I just thought “I” was the only one who really loves school! Lol … but I saw that on her face and in her reaction today!!

When she did that… I knew instantly – she loves being at school JUST as much as I do. Ah ha!!! She wanted to stay!! I can relate to her!!

Just thoughts… Ok I should go get these pajamas. ✌️