I forgot this…

Oh yeah, and I forgot one huge part of my day…

Yesterday when I was hurting, I was talking to one of the younger teachers – she’s only 30…

I mentioned I was hurting and was probably because of the rain and air pressure ?? She asked why? So I told her…. I’ve had a full mastectomy with reconstruction – just as I told her, a parent came in to chat with her about their child.

As she walked away yesterday she said to me, with a shocked look… we have to talk – I wanna hear your story.

Well I forgot all about that today… and she came to me and said … ok so what were you saying?

What? About what? Lol

And she reminded me… so I told her what happened.

She wanted to know everything – how did I know? What did it feel like? What was the mastectomy like? Do I like the implants? Etc.

So I told her everything … I had Ductal carcinoma … cancer of the milk ducts.

I had a double “LUMPectomy” in 2013 – which was supposably only papillomas- not harmful but needed to be removed – I didn’t know they were there … what happened was …

One night I woke up, and I was covered in blood, like I had been stabbed or something … I looked for wounds or whatever and there was nothing – the blood was coming from my nipple on the right side. Oh my god! Talk about terrifying.

So anyway that was 2013.

Then I did feel the lumps cause they were aching and hurting me, that was August of 2018…

I went in and again they did a triple lumpectomy (there were 3 this time). They removed all 3 masses at that time.

Maybe 2 weeks later I got a phone call from my doctor saying … we need to talk about your pathology report. I knew right away when he said that it was going to be bad. They didn’t do that the time before.

I have no history of breast cancer in my family at all – I am the very first.

So… then after that… it was just a whirlwind. I didn’t even have time to process everything before they were rushing me into surgery again, this time for the mastectomy.

She asked me questions about all of it… and I am very honest so I told her… I even showed her the photos. The bad ones from right after.

I explained how if I had to do again – yes I would still do the reconstruction. It would have been too devastating with everything, for me to have not done that… and it was offered to me by the insurance so why not.

She then tells me that… she doesn’t understand how to check for lumps… and she doesn’t know what she is looking for – but she has a pain and ache in one of her breasts. She also has NO history of breast cancer in her family

This is why I can easily tell the medical story even with the emotions behind it… if I can save someone else or help them – I want that.

I told her to just go in and have them check … usually they don’t want to do a mammogram or whatever to younger women – but they really need to… I know women in their 20’s with breast cancer

It does not matter who you are or how old you are…

She said she will go in.

It is hard to know what the lumps feel like … but is best if she is having a pain and ache in one breast – yes please go get checked!! I caught mine early … I am lucky.

But I forgot about that from today. You don’t mess with cancer – better safe than sorry

Know your body! So yeah, any chance I get to speak to someone about it- yes I am going to inform them…

And it was a little funny, I told her about the desensitizing… and she laughed and said she had a friend who got implants, but not because she was sick… and she kept showing everyone lol

I definitely don’t do that, but I understand … it’s not really you anymore… and then so many doctors have to see and touch – so you get to a point where so many have seen and touched, who cares anymore and you forget how normal people feel about it lol

Funny how that works.

I had one of my own girlfriends who had implants at same time – but again she was not sick like I was – she has saline and I have silicone and we sat there “here feel mine, does it feel like yours?” Lol omg too funny – makes me laugh to remember

Ok good night for real this time – I am pretty sure that is everything lol ✌️