Some good, some bad

Ok… so my house did not float away. At this moment, the rain has lulled to a mist. I emptied all the buckets, replaced all the towels… got the heater set at beach weather lol – we good!

Also just FYI … the online doctor thing – that is going awesome – my cough is way better – med is working – I didn’t have to see a doctor – woo hoo! I can see how this could be dangerous though… because I kinda wanna use it for everything now lol – never see a doctor again … kidding but not really. I am telling myself no! But that is pretty awesome! I am quite delighted with this at the moment.

I do have to do some of that project I have, tonight. Bleh. Deadline is the 20th, I didn’t start last night, so I better start. I don’t want to be last minute and not do everything. I like to be early. I’ll start after this.

Today was first day back after a holiday break. So basically everyone had a hard time getting back into the groove. All the teenagers were tired. Happy but sluggish.

We have 3 weeks of school and then break again 🤨 … for 2 weeks!! I won’t see them until after the first of the year. So much break!!!

2020… that’s crazy. It’s going to be a crazy year!! Whew ok – buckling up. 2020 is going to be incredible. I made it through so much… a lot will end… and then a lot will change. It will be good and bad just like any other year… hopefully more good than bad this coming year!! But I think it’s going to be good or at least better…

I never say “can’t be worse” that’s only tempting fate lol … no thank you – I battled a lot, and suffered devastating losses last year- and I’m coming back to life now – sorta – my way lol … so will be a good year ❤️

I do miss Jack. But ya know, it’s best. He is not right for me. And I do miss the friendship, but I just think a clean break is good. Keeping him would clutter me? Just best for both. I have not heard from him and I do the same.

There are times when I want to tell him stuff, but eh… I don’t think he is healthy for me. I will stay away. Not that I don’t miss him… but if was meant to be – would be.

I have a lot on my plate – if he’s not beside me – then he’s behind me. Bottom line.

I tend to hang on to those I love – usually … and I do love Jack. It’s just, I’m too in love with him to keep him. We don’t want the same things, so that’s life.

So I dunno. Whatever. I’m not ready anyway. Just saying – I do miss him and do think of him.

Tmrw is elementary… high school is intellectual energy… elementary is physical energy lol … can’t wait to see all my little people!

I have one little boy at school – kindergartener – he cant go to normal school because he literally cried for weeks on end when the parents kept trying.

He came to us back in September … he cried the first week… but I knew how to help him… I miss my mom too, I want my mom… and I would like to cry like that for my mom… so I understand him. (And when I was little, I also cried for mom back then lol) “Sensitive” and missing mom.

He’s attached to me now – sees me and his little teeny tiny face just lights up!! He no longer cries – he loves it there with us!! I love seeing that little boy!! He is just the sweetest little thing!! He has really bloomed!! He is currently learning to read.

Funny how it took working at a school to actually really love school lol… but whatever works.

Ok well, I suppose I have to work on my project 🤨 meh. Best to be done though. Then I can relax.

Have a good night!