Panic and Full Circle

Today was an ok day. I’m breathing, it did not kill me.

I had an appointment with my lawyer for the divorce. We are going to trial.

I am very afraid and panicked about having trial for the divorce. This man is my abuser.. I left him. He is dirty and brutal – so I’m terrified – I have to actually think about how to breathe because it panics me like that.

I have no belief in the court system – I don’t trust it. Speaking to my lawyer today she kind of gave me tiny hope. I am afraid to feel any hope here though.

But all in all, the meeting went well.

Then to change subjects, if you are a parent, you know those moments when they are little and ask you for something or to do something? And you say tmrw or next week or whatever ? And they remember that, and remind you …

Well that just went full circle at my house… I asked my daughter if we could watch a movie together last night…. her reply was “tmrw”

Lol… so here we are now, and I just popped around the corner to remind about the movie.

Her face… what? What movie?

I said “you said we could watch a movie together tonight remember??”

It just gave me a flashback to when they were little.

So to sum everything up for today, ok I have to brace for all the court stuff – whew ok – I can do this. Hopefully

And then movie and kids to relax with tonight ❤️

I like how the day is ending, way better!!!