Where to begin?

I’m definitely learning a lot about life, and have been through a lot, such as an abusive marriage and abusive divorce, breast cancer (had a full mastectomy and reconstruction), was left homeless and with nothing – not even 50/50… don’t even have my own things or my families things, photos – nothing.

After an abusive marriage of over 20 years – I restarted from scratch. Built… still building and learning life. I stayed graceful and true to myself and strong as I could. Here is my story and my thoughts …

There is a man in my life, who is kinda like my best friend. I can trust him. He gives me a sense of peace, always has.

I met him at my job in 2014. He’s been through a lot too… he was hurt severely, both similarly and differently than i was… but because of that… I knew he wouldn’t intentionally hurt me…

He also has a disabled child. I can see his compassion, empathy and love… that shows me he has the ability to actually love.

He has been kind and amazing to me… and yes I am in love with him.

We kinda keep a distance from each other currently though … he is about an hour away from me, and I have my things going on, as he does. We are both a little guarded.

He makes me feel comfortable and at ease, he makes me smile and feel happy. I feel no pressure with him – just peace. He is a good man.

He is not typically the kind of man I am familiar with. I am used to the business world, but he is a country boy. Let me just say… hot af!

When I am with him, I feel safe… when I share my stories and thoughts – I feel safe.

I don’t feel safe often. I don’t trust people, and I get hit on all the time no matter where I go… I’m tired and only want peace.

This man lets me vent. I am very thankful he’s been in my life all this time (5years) … I stayed strong because I had him for a friend.

I also believe I gave him a chance to deeply know a good woman who wouldn’t hurt him. I believe I helped him through some things also?

Anyway, I am in love with him. So I start my story telling you about the man who kept my head up, the friend who let me be me and allowed me to vent and tell stories … he’s an amazing man.

I will share more about myself as time goes on… but tonight I thought I would start with how I survived with grace and strength 🙂 I am lucky, I am very thankful he came into my life when he did.

I don’t know if anyone will ever read this – but whatever.

I’ll be back – gnite