First time I see him… was around 11am when I came home to let Doby outside …
But I didn’t have time – I had to just let Doby out, put him back and get back to work – takes me 10 minutes
I came back at 3pm for same thing … and this guy is still there!!! Go away!!
I did not want to come home in dark to this guy… AND I was also afraid he would somehow come in my house and I am NOT having that!!! Hell no!!!
Let me show you who I speak of 😮😮😱:
Yeah… that right there is black widow 😮😮 on a Monday!!! On my house … right next to my door!!
Ok well I couldn’t even deal … I got out my spider spray 🕷… I pumped it once and let spray the thing… and it still alive Omg
Ok fine I do another 2 pumps and still it lives!! Omg ok well I’m not touching it – so F it – I had to get back to work… whatever – please don’t come in my house!!! The world would hear my screams TOTALLY if come inside my house!! Omg I would die!
You are lucky I didn’t scream upon sight… but who the hell gonna come help me with a spider – hi can you come over and help me get a spider? No… I have to be adult – these are moments I do not like being the adult!!! Or the only one!!!
Anyway was NOT Charlotte!!!!
Anyway – I had to get back to work and my spray wasn’t working – I expect it to be instant but it wasn’t 😮
When I came home it was not in the same place – but instead the spray worked and it just took some time. Ok – I feel better now, can not come in my house.
Ugh black widows – please leave me alone – go somewhere else – ugh now I’m all freaked out by him!! Who knows if are others 😳😱
Anyway … ￼￼
It was dreary today – rained in morning before work then cold and overcast all day… and started the boring rain again at 5pm 🙄
My commute so little so I can’t really complain but meh… I’m ready for spring ✌️🙏 it’s gonna be a very long hard winter 🥶 😳
I do have something to actually complain about though!!! Darkness!!! Omg
I go to work in darkness and come home in darkness – can I have some light of day??
So maybe I will give that to Emmie? She is a chihuahua who would use the mat as intended
Was this tested on a Doberman ?? I think not!
He does like squeaky things and things that crinkle – he really loves the crinkle ❤️
So not all toys work for all breeds… ok then … lesson learned – maybe 🤷♀️
Anyway so … Monday. Meh
Ugghhhh I just looked at my forecast and rain all night and day tmrw and through Wednesday meh!!!!!
We need desperately – but they still gonna say not enough – is never enough / I live in California 🙄
And it’s boring cold rain – no excitement, just boring rain … no monsoon, no hurricane, no nice lightening or thunder booms … just constant really boring rain – maybe some flooding meh I don’t like the flooding or any destruction in the wake of
I like the power of the weather ?? I do not know 🤷♀️ I love the smell of the air, the look – the feeling all throughout and the feeling of the power it possesses … is an odd love lol ✌️ find it beautiful and breathtaking 🤷♀️whatever we all have our quirks – I don’t like the damage or bad things – just there storms themselves ❤️
Sometimes the sky opens up and just releases everything at once – but mostly it is boring crappy cold rain.
Ok and one last thing… so … there is something that is bothering me, and then also I am learning my gut and life lessons – I am not sure what I think or feel about something – I don’t know how well sits with me – but we see … I don’t know… something feels not ok? But I am not sure – I am thinking through and then because of that – it makes me question if I want this to begin with – is ok for me in general? I don’t know – I love it but I’m not sure ? some things bother me. I am still thinking – I am not sure at all. I can not see very clearly on it. Yeah I can not see very clearly with this. But I dunno??
Ahhh lesson time – we see 😳🙄 fricken life lessons 😝
I don’t know what cause it to kink up and hurt?? I have tendency to cross legs all the time!!!!!!!! Also when I sit on couch I curl up my legs – I can not do that – is extreme pain ?? So 🤷♀️ crossing legs? Is little better today – I haven’t been crossing my legs lol omg
I have to sit all normal lol… and my legs will do auto pilot and go to cross them selves automatically lol… but then there is pain – dang it – it is very hard not to cross them!!! But the pain prevents it ugh 😩
When I stand up to walk it hurts – when I initially stand – I have to stay there for a minute before moving
That’s annoying 🤨
Like I said – is better today 🤷♀️ but still hurts – just not as wonky as yesterday.
Also I can’t read someone ??? Is a man who I have something in common with… I am quiet and observant and also keep my distance.
He being friend ?? Which is fine … just started happening with texts and stuff
Omg – see … I can not handle that – I am more reserved … I am private with behind closed doors – she is not lol 🤷♀️
She wants me to come visit – I’m not really comfortable visiting. Just her life is a lot for me to handle… I am supportive but I don’t wanna be around? I can’t is too much.
Another girlfriend from years ago text me ❤️ she was my neighbor once – that is how I meet her… I had wonderful moments and memories with her – we laugh so much and have so much fun – we would go Christmas shopping together and close out every single store lol
She was always fun – we would do girl weekends to San Fran and trace movie and tv filming areas lol
We just have fun… she’s my catholic friends ❤️ I love her and her family ❤️ I relate to them because we raised similar 😊 and I click with her because she’s a soft but fun spirit… she has pain in her past so just a quiet soft fun spirit 😊❤️
That song made me just smile instantly because it took me back in time – I have not heard it forever
It takes me back to freshman year in high school and my best friend talked me into …omg – well a choreographed thing to this song 🙄 ugh the teen years lol … THANK GOD cell phones and things were not a thing when I grew up “anonymous freedom” … no evidence that any such thing ever happened 🙌😘
It was super dumb … but we had the best time ever … we just laughed and had so much fun … it still makes me laugh to think of. But still THANK GOD there is NOT video!!! Oh thank you for that one life!! ❤️👏👏👏
So I remember the time ❤️ … and then I also remembered all the dance moves omg lol … I could totally imagine like a flashback memory but also like was yesterday ❤️
So whatever – not really much thought but just saying – really awful person!
Anyway moving on – besides that… ugh 😩 things keep coming and then is just us… 3 of us – so massive pressure …
Some jumped into help… but I dunno 🤷♀️
We doing everything cause we have no choice but things be kinda better ? I dunno.
There’s alot – so make me go silent outside of work
Whew ok – well hope goes well. I have a great little team that tries really hard. ❤️ they pour their hearts into it ❤️
They are amazing ❤️
I don’t know what I want to do. And then that makes me little silent… mainly because I’m in thought over a thousand things
I just have a lot of things that are weighing on my mind
Oh well. But that does make me silent – I also very much miss the middle of no where. Ahhh to remember … was rough but way out in middle of no where 🙌👏❤️ totally love that! Love the peace
I do love my little house which is a nice escape
I just miss peace of the actual country.
And then … when you have certain things you went through … you are ultra sensitive to certain things …
So I don’t know 🤷♀️ I’m sensitive to something going on right now … and then that puts me silent and I gonna observe.
And then … There is also this odd situation that I am not totally sure what to make of it? So I am also observing that
I think is fine – but am watching – let me just observe more before I say anything
So I suppose this didn’t explain my silence very well… cause I can’t go into depth 🙁 but there are many things that have me in thought or quiet
I’m trying to handle many things.
I want to be careful with the silence – i don’t want to be so silent I can’t say overwhelmed.
Helps to come here …but I have been so exhausted, even with writing this I am barely staying awake – I have fallen asleep several times to finish this. But is good for me not to be completely silent – good to have little outlet
Also… winter is coming … it’s been cold – in 70’s but cold ,.. my cold is colder than your cold … California 70’s is colder than Massachusetts 70’s – maybe humidity thing? Next week we gonna have some 60’s and I’m gonna freeze
Ugh this weekend I will have to pull out my winter clothing 😝😝😝
Love summer much much more!!
I am definitely NOT a winter person!!!
So coldness has been a thing – you may think not – but yes!!!
Ughhh winter clothes 😝😝😝
And it’s getting darker earlier 😝😝😝
Ok just wanted to complain for one minute ✌️ I do not like winter. My least favorite season
I like warmth and long summer days ❤️ bbqs and baseball ❤️ ahh summer ❤️
So let me think what other things there are lol 🤷♀️
Oh I bought my little man a new toy … is hard to resist – he needs a toy box… or I need to stop seeing dog toys 🧸
He has all furry little play things … today I bought him this adorable little ghost 👻… behind a tombstone that says RIP 🪦 … is all vinyl type toy? It squeaks and is supposed to be enjoyable for chewers ?? It’s got good squeak to it – I was sure he would love it??
So I excitedly bring home for him and we play with it and he whimpers every time he grabs it …but continues to choose it lol 🙄
Does he not like it? I dunno🤷♀️ is weirdest thing?? I don’t know what that means ??
And also a neighbor dog barked at him and he looked umm ?? Well it scared him at first, but he is quiet like me 😮😮 … he doesn’t bark but he stands there like he doesn’t understand why he is being barked at lol -🤷♀️
Is kinda cute and sweet that he is quiet like me? Kinda odd came together like that. 😊❤️ funny how life does.
He has always been like that – he will bark, but only when he thinks he is protecting me (usually when wind blows because he hears the wind and things bumping …so he thinks there is intruder and steps between me and window or door lol being all tough and protective lol – he will do one bark and then just growl only, at the window or door lol
So… otherwise … pretty quiet .
I’m just thinking 💭 … just ya know – 2022 not over yet so… we see what happens ✌️😘
Oh god here comes 2023 😮 what will happen?? Lol
I can’t even guess anymore!!! Just like everything? 😮
Ok so time to count down to December 21st … the winter solstice … once I hit that… I know spring come soon 👏👏👏
Yeah I am not a winter person at all… I do not like winter … am too warm blooded ✌️
Bleh – winter 🥶
My little man is growing 😮 … no one listens when I tell them to stay little lol 🐾
Check him out … we got him on September 17th – he was 2 months old – born July 16th, 2022
Oh my gosh!! Such a little thing ❤️ look how tiny he was!! Damn he grows fast!!! Cause one month later and look … you can see the comparison in his little legs 😮 he is exactly 3 months now 😮😮
Look how long those little legs got lol and the ears keep growing too! Lol
Here is something I notice … with chihuahuas they have BIG dog syndrome where they think they so big 🙄
But this guy has little dog syndrome lol … where he still thinks he is little 😄😄 …you do not know how many times he gets stuck somewhere because he used to fit and thinks he still does… like under side tables or beds lol – ok little guy – you are not so little anymore lol … he got his head stuck in a gate while I was loading the car – and I have my hands full and he freaking out cause he stuck – felt like some Chevy Chase movie omg … dude relax – I’m coming – be right there 🙄 stop thinking you are little – you are not so little now
Funny how that works though?? Look at those long legs lol
Look how big his ears continue to get 😄😄❤️ I just love him soooo much ❤️
He is my shadow always – he has completely attached ❤️… and me too ❤️
Once in blue moon he still has a accident in house but not often – he’s really good with it … but when he does … I will say “who did this?“ and he slicks his ears back and goes somewhere I can’t see him 😄😄 like nope not me, don’t look at me 😄🙄❤️
He has such a cute personality
And I’m reading him now… I know what his bites mean… some are for potty, and some are for attention … and I always feed him at 5:30pm so at 5:30 he totally reminds me is dinner time lol – literally on the dot!! Lol little man does not miss a beat!!
He doesn’t bite hard at all just ones to say “hey I need this“ … if goes past 10pm he even tells me when it’s his bedtime lol ❤️ I usually put him to bed at 9:30pm but is Saturday so I was gonna let him chill with me … but by 10pm he like “ok I need bed” lol … first child I have ever had that actually reminds me is his bedtime lol
He is sweetheart he really coming into his little personality ❤️ he is such a good dog ❤️
When I took that photo today – apple put a (?) over his picture ?? Ummm what?? And when I click it said look up breed info and told me he was a German Pinscher ?? The ears match!!
Every picture of him tells me German Pinscher 😮 the ears and photos when I look up a German Pinscher totally match!! He is also part terrier but I don’t know what kind – I can see it in his face and also his chest is white and he has freckles in the white area ❤️❤️❤️ ok sometimes freckles are adorable – ok fine ❤️
He has the cutest little forehead wrinkles ❤️ and he looks at me when I say stuff and I’m pretty sure he is so smart he understands …
Sit was very easy to teach him… but stay is not… he can’t not totally grasp “stay” yet …we working on commands – he learns so quickly – he has best little personality ❤️❤️
Lol those big ears ❤️
He likes to come up right beside me everywhere – and tonight something scared him cause he bark several times and stood in front of me… then he growl at door for awhile lol
Ok so he knows he has a bark – but I guess only uses when he needs
He’s got a good bark but is still kinda pipsqueak type – but you can tell is because he young… he only barks for protection no other reason 😮… I heard they are barky but he is not 👏
He has melted into the family so completely ❤️
He also does not like to be cold and thinks it’s cold outside lol he runs to potty and comes right back, where before when was warm – he took forever!!!
Also… normally dogs don’t let all their pee out at once but he will and it’s hilarious … he will stand there and squat / yes I said squat 😄😄 forever!! Until is all out lol
He doesn’t lift his leg he just squats 😄😄 whatever – is adorable lol ❤️🐾 you do you baby ❤️🐾
Today he is 3 months old… he has been on earth for 3 months ❤️😮
He also dreams and barks in his dreams … or makes noises lol … is so cute and adorable currently lol ✌️❤️
He used to suckle in his sleep but he doesn’t do that anymore lately – he’s so funny ❤️🐾
Ok I’m kinda quiet this weekend … but I be back tmrw … I’m just taking in the time off and staying away from world ✌️😘 is nice to take a breath ❤️