I went out with one of my friends … it was going to be over 100 so we decided to walk the mall and shop when it was open.

The open the mall early (8am) …so people can walk and not have to be outside… but the mall itself doesn’t open the stores until 10am

There is a movie theater in this mall – I typically avoid the mall … I haven’t been to the mall in years 😮 … it’s different 😮

Anyway … spur of moment we went to see Barbie first thing lol

https://youtu.be/Kb7jYOYXiVc

It’s cute. And funny in spots … has adult references, what is this rated? PG-13 … I would say for the older child, but not the young ones.

Lots of pink and Barbie stuff …

Also – funny thing 😄😄😄 … these people going to the movie omg … most girls all decked out in pink or with Barbie shirts 👚… and some of the women were in total Barbie outfits – these are normal people just going to see the movie like us 😄

They do not work for the theater or movie company – just normal people all TOTALLY Barbie’d out 😮😮

https://youtu.be/UsDV86MuQik

😮😮

Did not realize this was this mega of a thing … I didn’t even wear pink … can you guess what color I wore?… lol yup … black lol … that’s most of my clothes and I’m not emo

But tan shorts with white tennis shoes … only my shirt was black lol … my skin was pink… so that was my pink

She was all impressed by the seats cause they are mechanical recliners… and we even had extra special seats than that, for some reason ?? whatever not gonna question – Bonus!

No wonder I am half deaf … all those years of prior movies 😄😮 damn that shit is loud! What? 👂

Omg was so LOUD! Wow… I got old 😮

But it was loud and I think we were right by a speaker

Cute though, sweet morals – little feminism … but not overly bad and kept it light bubbly and happy – brightness to it. But it’s Barbie 😘

Afterwards we shopped in Macys and I bought a pink and black shirt and black pants lol

I did not by the pink and black shirt because of Barbie lol

It is silky flow professional shirt that feels like not wearing a shirt … but is sharp for work 👏

I also bought the most awesome pair of black pants 👏 … also for work… they look really good… is form fitting yet comfy… so win win on both … and they match perfectly 👏

https://youtu.be/SgM3r8xKfGE

And they feel amazing on – so yes please 👏

Just so happened was pink 😘✌️.. it’s hot pink lol

Then we went furniture shopping and then it was 5pm – omg where did day go 😮 how long is that movie? Lol … ya know a good 30 minutes past start time was all stupid previews and commercials

And then we ate at Amy’s lol … she loves that place ❤️ I do too

Oh yeah – and I had to pee because I had gotten the largest soda ever lol … but you can’t just pause so I had to wait and omg 😱 we were like first ones out

And good thing too because the line for bathroom after us was insane 😮 … I woulda been in trouble 😳 … but luckily I was fine

Also… speaking of movies – shout out to Butcher for recommending “Pompo: The Cinéphile”

Pompo, la Cinefila

(I don’t really know how to share here – so I hope that works 🙏)

Anyway … we rented that on Friday and we all LOVED it!! Even me! Lol …

They made me watch it in Japanese so I had the English subtitles on …

They don’t like English dubbed shows because they say that the English voice actors mess up the emotion and don’t do it right lol … they say is way better in Japanese – so that’s how we watched it lol

They wanted me to experience the true emotion lol

Anyway – like I said – we loved it 👏 ❤️- thank you again … and they were surprised I know of it lol – and I was surprised I liked it

Ok well I have to sleep – I am late to sleep by ALOT 😮

😘 good night 💤🌙

https://youtu.be/ZyhrYis509A

Today I am meeting a friend – we walking a trail… then going to the mall 😮

https://youtu.be/4T1t5OFOYDU

That always reminds me of the mall 😄😄

Then we have lunch at our favorite vegan place 👏

The difference between vegetarian and vegan is that vegetarians will have milk, cheese, eggs, maybe fish? But vegans – nothing at all from animals

Then she wants to go furniture shopping lol – she is looking for furniture (not me)… but she buys furniture and doesn’t really look at it… a chair was too small, a reclining couch was too hard to get recliner down lol

So I will help her today and we will look for something good for her

We will be around 100 degrees today so this will also depend on how we are 😮

Ok I’m off for all that 👋

🛍️

https://youtu.be/QK8mJJJvaes

On a hot ass Saturday

https://youtu.be/FiXVRdotCEk

Only supposed to be 109 today 😮 I’m supposed to do stuff but I don’t want to – I will burn 🔥 I would like to NOT be cooked 🥘 😮

Be dripping sweat and turn all red (possibly purple if too much 😮) and dotted with freckles all over the redness.. Omg … too much for me is like 5 minutes … “Irish” 🙄😐

It also makes my hair really light and also lightens my eyes 😮 …the sun PLUS heat, is massive for me in temps that are insane! I am Irish!!! So that can be a thing if too much – is the heat… the sun I love … but the 2 together is brutal!!! ☀️ 🔥

And I certainly don’t wanna bubble – if you do not know what that is … consider yourself lucky

Anyway…

https://youtu.be/1IoMTmJ7SKw

I will burn 🔥😮

https://youtu.be/YkyhvCdJ_vM

😮 I’m supposed to do stuff – but I don’t want to. I think I will clean inside instead … and hello electric bill … ahhhh!

But yeah – so I think I will NOT do stuff outside today

I do not want to sizzle and burn 🔥 I am already pinky, dotted and lightened enough!

So yeah I think I will stay inside and clean

I am also little overwhelmed with someone I do not know well… I dunno 🤷‍♀️

So … I do try to save the world if I am able… little pieces at a time ✌️

So you know, if someone needs help I can direct them – either to resources or enjoying life 😁 … and I never want to have people suffer – ever!!

I also love to help … I have empathy and compassion

Having said that…

I know who am, I know my place and where I fit, I know what I can do… and what I can’t – I know my areas ❤️… mostly … but obviously I’m human – so there may be “moments” I question strength or abilities 😮 I think I can do everything, but then I can’t or question

Also I know my own mental health and what can handle and what I can not handle… I have to keep my own balance also 🧘‍♂️

I can not do heavy – I do not have the capabilities to be ok with heavy. I can do grief and be empathetic or compassionate – but I am not equipped to handle major mental health issues

I referred to a medical professional that could absolutely help… they didn’t take

Then said they were going to get help… I was supportive and said is right decision 👏 remember … I don’t know this person well … very distant acquaintance

The next day I said “good luck today, you can do this!“

And they said …they don’t know what they’re doing 😐

Ok

Well I can’t do heavy – too much over my head – professionally that is above my training 😮 … and personally – I can’t go heavy and dark on my off time 😮

I can show you how to be alive (in an old nerdy way but whatever) ✌️

But with me – currently I only have moments … work is always heavy … and my own life has its devastating and hard moments …

So I can’t go down a heavy pressure situation … I can be supportive and caring, helpful in direction… but I can not take on heavy – I’m sorry – I can’t 😮

And then … I woke up this morning and had TONS of messages … what?

https://youtu.be/ru3gH27Fn6E

Work was fine and quiet … but suddenly people missing me all at once … and then that … and then I can’t “people”

Easy does it

Pressure – too much all at once – no no!

So I dunno 🤷‍♀️

I just have moments …and I don’t want to have them be dark and heavy. Life brings that all on its own – I need my sunshine and I need brightness 🔆 😮

https://youtu.be/E1fzJ_AYajA

🔆… I am ?? Hmmm 🤔 a mix of these songs :

https://youtu.be/NaCCG7QkM_c

https://youtu.be/p47fEXGabaY

https://youtu.be/bxV-OOIamyk

https://youtu.be/OPf0YbXqDm0

https://youtu.be/5B1QTEGL3t0

(Just quietly – I don’t need fame or my name in lights – but my actions.. I hope …help others 🙏 so impact – so yes … I wanna live forever 😘)

But I am also human and have to know my own boundaries to be ok 😮😮

I survive and cope with laughter and good things if possible … cause life hits me too hard otherwise

I don’t want to be pulled down heavy – I can’t… and I feel guilty … I barely hang on myself and I have enough darkness in life

I am quirky and upbeat and funny … I balance the heavy I have myself … is how I cope

Is who I am

I am bright with light so… I can enjoy life with you … and can help direct how to enjoy ❤️

But I can not take on someone else’s massive issues if they do not try to help self… but I do feel bad and guilty… I am not in mental position of my own to handle darkness in that way 😮 I try to help … but I can’t go under so ya know 😮

https://youtu.be/TUVcZfQe-Kw

You can come levitate with me – yes 🙌

I am not a darkness person – definitely light 😮 but I feel bad … I give many resources but is seriously above what I am ok with or can do 😮

Ok well anyway …

If you could pick… ok wait … let me rephrase … if YOU HAD TO pick a hearse… would you pick black or white ?

I am polling my area… but I am also bit curious what my area vs the world be like… classic black or heavenly white? 😮

What if you HAD to pick? Your choice would be what??

Ok well … I’m gonna do inside stuff because it’s “109” degrees!! 💥

😮 – I do have things at home that need to be done too … so that’s fine – motivated but not overly

Going to try to do stuff before is too hot to move 😮😳

https://youtu.be/N5hXmS8MTFU

I have an older friend that instead of saying the word “text” … she says “Faxed” 😄😄 my brain catches it every single time – but she can’t switch her brain / I mentioned and giggled lol

But she never remembers to call it “texting” so whatever lol … but is hilarious because my brain catches it every time!

Also… I am having a morning drink 🍹 (NON alcoholic – just normal morning drink) but it tastes like a tropical vacation 😮❤️

Ok I have to go – a lot happening – bye 👋

It is very hot

And of course half my ac in building blows – so now I have that cause is always something and I can’t do anything until they come and they come on Friday 😮

https://youtu.be/PinBVYKQGeM

I have some cooling things that keep manageable – but I’m really hot 🥵 … I do kinda like it

But is easy to over heat really quick! Plus I turn pink and the freckles pop even darker all over – you see ALL my freckles in the summer 😮

https://youtu.be/N5hXmS8MTFU

July forever ✊

Anyway – it’s hot – could maybe chill a few degrees 🙏 I would like my face to not be bright red and freckly

So anyway … I want to say stuff … but I am going to see how sorta plays out …

There is this person who is new to one of my worlds and I am suspicious 😮 I do not trust yet so be careful – step wisely … I am watching who this person is – we see.

I definitely do NOT trust yet!!

https://youtu.be/swnudbCnccs

I have been crazy busy – my flock was like … we have never seen someone have a birthday with so much celebration and duration 😄😄 👏👏

Well yes … because I start on the 4th for my independence from the womb lol 😄👏

Then the 7th my actual bday and that happened to be on a Friday this year so BONUS ❤️👏

Then the 9th my cancer free anniversary day ❤️👏

So it’s just been a lot of seeming celebration 🎊

But most of my life – I own July 😘😄✌️❤️ ahhhh if only July forever ❤️

https://youtu.be/5dRdgx-fYLs

It’s been like the 4th of July for at least a week now 😄😄❤️👏🫶 … just the 4th actually had fireworks to kick it off lol … and then has been wonderful and amazing since then 👏❤️

So soaked in all the actual life moments – celebrated life like it’s 4th of July – when the summer is still golden 💛 ☀️ 💛

https://youtu.be/bjD_R8kWgNY

https://youtu.be/bpOR_HuHRNs

😮 but “my wild” … is very tame compared to others – but there is wild streak 😮

Totally enjoyed life in July ❤️❤️

Can we just keep July and maybe have Groundhog Day in July ? Start it on the 4th? Lol 🙏😄😘

Summer – I love you ❤️

https://youtu.be/LYTBok8Ol7k

❤️

Today I am going on a golf cart ride with some of my flock to a restaurant and having wonderful final day of vaca 👏… 😩😩 it’s been soooo amazing ❤️🫶❤️ please don’t go

https://youtu.be/ujwm8YrEgI4

My love for the summer – see why I love? ❤️

How could winter even compare?

Ok I have to get ready for my flock – and then I am going over a friends house because she ordered new furniture so she wants me to help her lay it out lol 👏

I have so many stories ❤️👏 hopefully I remember them all lol – I be back tonight cause tonight I am not doing one thing!!!

Ok bye for now 👋

So I really want summer all the time 🙏

I still have my moms bday coming and Doby’s ❤️

And I created monster with estate sales

Ok I have to go ✌️😘❤️

I be back

Friday – July – 7

How could it not be amazing with all that? 🎰 on a Friday ❤️👏👏

Having best moments ever ❤️👏❤️

This morning I woke up early because one of my friends wanted to go to some estate sales lol … well I like to look – so ok. We woke very very early and I ask if daughter wanted to go?

Last night daughter said yes, but in morning she tired and almost didn’t come with – until she remembered was my bday and suddenly she wanna come lol … she say “what so big deal about estate sales?”

I said “just wait and see what you think”

Well we so early that I got a TV that is ENORMOUS 😮 I went from 32” to like 75” 😮 now I see everything 😮

My daughter was floored

And then she is picking things too – and had me get her a chair for her room lol

She LOVED it lol … she loves my friend ❤️👏

We said goodbye to my friend and as we drive home – we were not even down the street … and she see another, has me pull over and makes me call my friend back… who met us there lol

Then she says to me … why have you not told me about this ?

Lol – I do!!!! But she thinks I am not cool and don’t do cool things lol … so she half listens lol … no idea where she gets that lol … she listens to my stories but doesn’t really think about what I am saying lol

Then I show her lol … now she wants me to let her know when next one is 😮

Afterwards I called my son and said – hey are you working ? Can you help me with the tv and chair?

Yes he was working but was able to get off early – set my tv up for me 👏 oh my gosh!! So big ❤️👏

He’s like a whiz with electronics and computers ❤️👏

Then he help me go get chair and transport that 👏💪

I do surprising things sometimes so he never knows what to expect when I call him 😄👏❤️ … and it’s always weird lol 😄😄 … it’s never something normal lol

Hey ya know … I hand out adventures lol

https://youtu.be/H7HmzwI67ec

https://youtu.be/bpOR_HuHRNs

❤️👏

Food, friends, family and things ❤️🫶❤️

The kids got me air fryer … and then I have that huge tv now 😮 I can see everything

They also got me a purple forever rose 🌹 ❤️ cause purple is my favorite color and that’s a mom gift lol ❤️👏

They all here with me now ❤️👏

I be back when is quieter and less happening 😘🫶❤️ happy July ❤️