Alright so this is another song scavenger hunt… thanks to:

Mixitup and Playme Now!

The theme for this one is Dusk til Dawn… so these are my picks… and it’s only supposed to be 10… but screw it – I added the last one just for me ✌️❤️ I just wanted it

1.) Lionel Richie – “All night long”

https://youtu.be/nqAvFx3NxUM

2.) AC/DC … “You shook me all night long” (this one is in my playlist rotation ❤️)

https://youtu.be/Lo2qQmj0_h4

3.) LMFAO – “All night long”

https://youtu.be/uVD6oE5Xk6Q

4.) Rascal Flatts – “Life is a Highway”

https://youtu.be/5tXh_MfrMe0

5.) Slaughter – “Up all night”

https://youtu.be/8Za0gWXJW1

6.) The Kinks – “All day and all of the night”

https://youtu.be/fOGMRnKl5co

7.) Cyndi Lauper – “All through the night”

https://youtu.be/ZONKoKIQ9RY

8.)The Fifth Dimension – “Last night, I didn’t get to sleep at all”

https://youtu.be/kWogzq0Sz0A

9.) DeBarge – “Rhythm of the night” ❤️

https://youtu.be/cAQSZhazYk8

10.) The Eagles – “Heartache Tonight” (I love The Eagles!)

https://youtu.be/feduLprAAig

11.) … and not to be a total nerd… but whatever – his stuff soothes me… I had to add this one ❤️

Glenn Miller – “Moonlight serenade”

https://youtu.be/Mr7Tu5UlrhE

It is NOT my birthday month… but I have a funny birthday month story…

Alright … so my mother’s due date with me was July 4th… which here in America is called Independence Day… they day we celebrate our separation from British rule and became our own nation. July 4, 1776 🇺🇸

So she was supposed to have me on July 4th… BUT the only time ever in my life I was late!! Instead I came on the 7th…

My birthday is 7-7-72… I always tease and say it because I’m the jackpot 🎰 with all those 7’s … 7 is my favorite number

Anyway… all my life – I claimed that July 4th celebration as my own lol 😄😄😄

My story is that… my mother was due on July 4th… but I was late – came on the 7th… it was too late to change the celebration so we just start my birthday on the 4th and then I own the rest of July 😄😄✌️

I’m sorry that just delights me even in my own mind 😄❤️ dont really care what anyone else thinks with that – I do that for the delight it gives me…

So while raising my kids … I told them MY version of the Fourth of July … 😄😄

The boys at first thought it was true – until school lol – but even then they played along with my little shenanigans lol ❤️

My daughter however – is like a little lawyer 🤨😄… so she initially was skeptical of my story – cause why just for me lol … well that’s just how it is – don’t question lol

She continued questioning me on it… and then one day argued … the Fourth of July is not for you… it is the celebration of independence!!

So my reply was… yes dear… my independence from my mothers womb 😄😄❤️ (I am brilliant sometimes lol)

She does not like my story – or my reasoning lol … I get the 7th thats it lol … I still take July 4th- and take the rest of the month – nothing overly special … but I just can do whatever I want all month long lol – free pass for whatever lol ✌️ I just like that

My daughter is very strong little lady… she wants it as it is. No bullshit lol

I like a little bit of dreams mixed in so anyway … still claiming

July is mine ❤️✌️ 7772 ❤️

Ps… this post is because someone else has a birthday month here in April!! Woo hoo!! Happy Birthday month to…

https://lolsyslibrary.wordpress.com

I say take the whole month and enjoy your birthday!! 🎉 why not? Just extend the awesomeness lol ✌️

I tried to write a post tonight … I tried several times… I have something on my mind… I just don’t know how to put into the right words?

I can know and feel what I want to say or speak of… but when I try to… it doesn’t come out right?? Usually, I don’t have that problem. Tonight I do

So I dunno? I am just trying to figure something out?? I guess that’s not gonna work tonight, so I will sleep on it and see. I just can’t find the right words tonight.

That’s a little frustrating but whatever

I survived so far … now I have what? 14 days to see 🤨 grrr

I drove to the store – besides working on the weekends… I forget what is like to have a place to have to go lol…

I had my list, went to the medium grocery store … not the cheapest – not the most expensive … I already knew the cheap one won’t have anything – they are always cleaned out!!

And I didn’t wanna spend a lot of money on food like that… that expensive store is too expensive …

So went with medium… it was not crazy crowded but no one was regulating how many could be there or not… some people had masks on – I was the only one with gloves …

They need larger isles … I don’t like passing so close to people!! 🤨 I literally hold my breath every time someone walks by (I’m sorry I just feel I have to)

I always think of the movie “Osmosis Jones” I do not want germs finding their way in lol

What a difference though… before people would wanna come talk to me or whatever – today was like everyone thought everyone else was a leper 😳😮 was weird. Kinda awkward … you could definitely tell everyone was nervous and suspicious of everyone else lol

I have enough food to last us quite awhile… at least 2-3 weeks worth – I don’t wanna do that again!!!

Came home, unloaded groceries and wiped them down, washed the fruits and veggies… then off to strip myself down and shower again cause ewww I want nothing coming home with me!! At home – I wanna touch my face and relax!!!

So that’s over with – I was not comfortable. Even less than normal!! Yeah I definitely don’t wanna do that again for awhile!!

But we have what we need now. Hopefully I made it through with no germs 🦠 attacking me!!

Back to isolation ❤️

Alright so big girl panties on… with the United States at 206,233 with 4,576 deaths… California governor said our peak gonna be around mid May here in California … whew ok… please do not let me be in that peak…

So I am preparing for my mission to the store… you can say I am crazy or over reacting whatever – go ahead – roll your eyes …

But I am suiting up… I pulled out gloves 🧤 and my daughter says …

You are not wearing gloves like that to the store are you?

Yes… yes I am… I have to touch a cart 🛒… (my gloves are bright purple – not intentional – I have a couple pairs ready to go)

I am wearing gloves, have my sanitizer, fully dressed so nothing get on skin… then she say to me…

Got mask?

Lol no … but it’s April fools … I could NOT resist getting a reaction out of her 😄❤️ …

So I pulled out a (CLEAN) pad and placed it across my face as I modeled for her lol … and she says MOM! No 😄😄😄 (I know sorry but was funny – I’m like you wanna come with? 😄😄 she did not 😄) – no idea why she thinks I am embarrassing lol 😄✌️

I was only kidding – I would NEVER… although you never should say never … I just wanted the reaction lol… but I got bandana so not the greatest but help better than nothing.

Operation “go to store” commencing 😑😒

Bleh!!! I don’t wanna … I know I know – I’m going – bleh

Do I feel lucky??? Yeah still no – but ok. Off I go – no one breathe on me!! 6 feet away – stay 6 feet away!!!!

So my “PLAN” was… to take a shower – then go out, return and shower again – right? Sounded perfect… clean to go out, I feel better cause I was all panicked earlier … so I took a shower …

I got out of the shower and put on lotion, I’m all warm and I am all clean and good smelling… I just don’t wanna get fully dressed and go out!! I am comfy – I wanna stay in

So I went to daughter … and said … “so hey … let’s go ahead and let me push the store til tmrw” lol… and she did MY face!!! Lol this one 👉 🤨

Noooo mum, go to the store. I had to do my school work today so you have to go to store now, anyway, isn’t that why you took shower?

Well yes, I had imagined going to the store after the shower but have decided against that lol … that’s gonna be a no. And besides that… homework won’t kill you – virus will … I got a sigh and a eye roll

Tmrw will be fine… I am doing self care tonight… taking the night to be comfy and not be near people…

It’s like Russian Roulette – bleh Do I feel lucky? No… no I do not!

So instead… I was able to bribe with breakfast for dinner – totally yummy … waffles and bacon that we had left … see still food – you can deal for a night… there are drinks and things she can eat. (I improvised cause didn’t have butter lol… she can fully make the same expression “🤨” I have sometimes lol)

It’s funny to see yourself in your child… I wanna say – awww it’s happening lol – you make the same faces as me lol ❤️… we are animated lol 😄✌️

So yeah – today I am gonna do self care – I don’t need a reason – just want the peace – not really in mood to see people … this is my gift to myself ✌️ that’s self care right? Be nice to yourself lol

So I do miss people… but at the same time I don’t want to be around them, near them, or in an enclosed building with them.

So for right now, I just don’t feel like doing that tonight, I’m gonna skip it… I’m too warm – totally comfy, smell good, so clean, want to avoid people – so I fed this woman, she’s full. We good for the night.

I have made the decision that I will self care and not go to the store tonight. It will be tmrw – unless I can find a way to keep pushing it lol – I might try to push this self care thing again tmrw! ✌️

I will go eventually – I just have to pump myself up enough. Bleh… I have tried everything I could think of to NOT have to actually go in store… why is the grocery store not “totally” just online pick up or delivery only!! Stop going in!!!! Stop infecting the store! And other people – little as possible contact

And these stores need to do that… get your online stuff to be able to handle the pick ups quicker… right now you can’t even order or pick up until 2nd week of April 🤨 I can not wait that long 😒 ugh!

They need a better method of operation… protect your public, and your employees! If they closed the store to only pick up or delivery – by using all store employees – they could do it!! Employees be kept more safe and so would we!

Can we do that please??

Well whatever – I’ll wear my big girl panties tmrw, not tonight.

Alright so… maybe possibly struggling somewhat today… everyone has their moment right? Ok. My moment is this moment … I’ll be fine – just saying, having a bit of a moment.

Ok… so I love reading all your posts… the informative ones, the fun ones, the uplifting ones, the ones that make me see other perspectives or interests… so love all of that – keep doing! I need that! It helps ❤️ I love being with you all.

I have little bit of panic and overwhelmingness today… just cause … I have to go to the store – I don’t want to… I’m afraid … I have to but I’m afraid. Shhh 🤫

I’ve been pushing off and pushing off … but I can’t push off too much longer.

And it’s just exploding all over here in the United States … I stay away from news as much as possible, I still get alerts on my phone – you do have to know what’s going on to be safe. I don’t do social media just this…

So… I’m having slight panic when I think – ok I have to go to store … whew! I don’t want to… exactly how long can you live without food? Lol ✌️ can we do that? I have read there are people who live on sunlight (lol) how do I do that???

But I don’t wanna go to the store – I feel terror with that. Whew ok shhh 🤫

Just life right? Ok… sometimes in life you have to do things you don’t wanna do ☹️ … I don’t wanna do this. I never thought it would hit me so much?? But it does.

Anyway… being a wuss.

Ok so… get in the car… drive to the store… Oh my god! … ok get out of the car – go into the store … run and grab anything that’s left – don’t breathe … and get the F out!!

I don’t mind going to work because is only me there… I see literally no one!!! Just on the roads and I am in a steel cage with wheels lol

I don’t know if I have the umm?? What’s the word I’m looking for?? Balls? Lol … to go to the store at this moment – I might have to test my waters first ?? I dunno all of it kinda scares me and I’ve been isolating so it just makes me nervous.

But then I have a side of me that is like … suck it up!! This is life – handle your business 🤨 … I want that side to shut up!! Lol – I am trying

I’m trying to take my mind away – but I have to go to store… so that looms over me

Dear lord please let it be ok. I am afraid.