Dropped off food for her. Just left it and then called her. I just feel bad. I don’t like to hear her cry. Or anyone for that matter.

This sucks!!

Dropped off food for her. Just left it and then called her. I just feel bad. I don’t like to hear her cry. Or anyone for that matter.

This sucks!!

Ahh… I am busy today!! Every time I try to do something someone calls! And I have actual stuff to do.

Also one of my elderly people needs help today – she needs food. I can’t say no… if that were my mom I would want someone to care for her, help her. She doesn’t have anyone else – just me… her family is not close and she’s in her 80’s… which is why I always brought her the extra food and stuff, and also she’s lonely so I always would visit.

So… I have some extra food that can last her a little while (soups and stuff) – and I can give her some of the meals I made yesterday.

She wants me to visit but I told her not a good idea for right now … we can visit on the phone later… so I’ll just go drop that off on her porch. I will do that shortly.

I can just let her suffer – sorry I can’t – I’ll still stay isolated and keep her isolated, but I have to help her. She was in tears – I don’t want her all upset or suffering like that.

I already feel bad I can’t visit – I feel like I’m punishing her by saying no – but I’m just protecting her… you don’t realize what you have til it’s gone… although I always loved being there for all my people – and I always realized how important they are to me… cause I sincerely loved seeing them and spending time with them… I just never thought it would be taken away like this. You just never thought THIS could happen

I really miss taking care of people. It’s a pull. I miss my people VERY much… But anyway… I’ll be careful and stay away from everyone. ☹️ just dropping off for her.

Evidentially our presidential choices are going to be Trump or Biden… Bernie Sanders just dropped out today.

And today looks like another absolutely beautiful day!! Woo hoo!! ❤️☀️

I’m thinking summer clothes ❤️ YAY!!! It’s already decent temperature out, only to get warmer as day goes on.

Ok – I have stuff to do today ❤️

** I really miss my people ☹️ I want my people back! (I know I can’t have them back yet, but I miss them greatly!! More than I can ever put into words)

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This video is exactly what MY coyotes sound like!!!! 😮😳 they just scream like that!!! At night whenever 🤨 …it’s not constant… but if they close enough they will wake you 🤨

But this is exactly how they sound!!…

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They are really creepy!!

You would not believe how beautiful it is outside today!! Oh my god!

It is windy, but beautiful blue skies, amazing sun ☀️, is warm-ish (Lol) … it’s about 70 or so ❤️

I am pushing it with the bikini top and shorts. I cooked meals for today tmrw and Friday earlier so those are all ready and be easy.

I need exercise… and I need that sun … so gonna just get my boots and walk – no jacket today – I don’t need it …

Yeah I know… lotion lotion lotion – I am Irish I have learned this lesson 🤨 I keep sunlotion on hand at all times lol

I love the sun, but the sun likes to burn me. Yet I keep wanting and loving it so huh, interesting – all philosophical lol ✌️

Anyway … ahhh almost to summer … I just want summer

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I was gonna do an old old song from 1988… when I thought of the song – I remembered loving it … but then I listened to it – yeah not so much anymore…

So I picked LFO instead ❤️ that has more of a summer feel anyway.

Ok so rockin the boots and bikini ✌️

I still want to love my moments and love my life ✌️

I know what’s going on around me. I know it’s there. Getting away from it.

I am lucky to be away and out in middle of nowhere ❤️ still find a lot of peace here – I was meant to be here ❤️

All night long I dreamed!! I don’t usually remember dreaming – sometimes I do, but not usually.

Last night I kept dreaming and waking myself up all night long!!

The first dream… I remember waking because of a dream, but it was 1am!! Nope – I was too tired – it’s still dark lol … so at that moment – I remembered the dream, I remember my heart was racing and I was confused… I went back to sleep and now I forgot what that dream was…

The next dream woke me up at 3am 🤨 …

I vaguely remember that dream… I was alone outside… I couldn’t find anyone… just ya know, like that. I kept trying to find someone like I was lost? Bleh – It woke me because I felt panic 🤨

And then another at 5am… I don’t remember this one – but this one woke me with a more peaceful feeling? Like I could be at ease? I didn’t want it to stop… and then I woke up 🤨

I thought to myself ok remember the dreams 🤨… I didn’t do so well remembering the dreams lol – I can just remember the feelings from them

I did not eat anything weird before bed… did nothing unusual.

I don’t know what caused that. But whatever. They weren’t horrible dreams except the panic one – I did not like that one lol

It was just odd… I don’t normally dream that much, and to get constantly woken up in one night… Interesting 🧐

I stay free from social media and tv… I don’t use social media just this… I don’t watch tv… I don’t watch the news… The news, I do recently though 🤨 grrr… I am kinda forced on the news for now 🤨

But anyway… I have a lot of freedom because of that. You have no idea of the freedom from that…

I don’t compare myself to anyone else, I don’t have anyone else’s opinions or thoughts in my head, I live freely ❤️ it’s amazing – it’s like you can breathe!! You can think or believe whatever you want.

Sure I have my things I have to work through – that’s life. But I do that freely without opinion or pressure. If you understand that? I am able to work through it myself for myself…

Plus I have no outside influence on my life… I make my own influence

So anyway… these are some songs that I adore …

I think every woman should believe this…

Because things in life make you stronger …

I love this song… I just do… I saw this girl do this song and she impressed me sooo much!!! Love this little girl!! She is deaf… I’m so impressed ❤️

I am unwritten also…

I just like this song because it just reminds you always keep your head up… life is gonna beat you down but keep your head up!! Always ✌️

This song… well I just love this song … I see what a wonderful world all the time…

Sorry for this one lol… we all have to have fun right? Alright… so this is a little me lol… I am very girly… I like make up and lotions and perfumes – really girly lol… I am also kinda plastic now lol… so yeah – I’m a Barbie girl lol ✌️had to add this one because it makes me laugh ❤️ (I also loved Barbies once upon a time)

I saved the best for last – because this song – I just feel instant excitement with ❤️❤️❤️ … I just love this song … whatever … is what I love … it makes me smile… I feel excitement… I know all the moves lol 😄✌️ … yeah this…

Anyway… this post made me smile and I just wanted songs tonight ❤️✌️

Gnite

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