I have an imminent death on the desk this morning … hasn’t happened yet – but everything is ready to go when that call comes in.
I was thinking … hmm 🤔 do I want to stay in funerals? I am not totally sure. I am thinking I will probably need something a little bit happier? Eventually? I’m kinda thinkin that? I dunno whatever, we see
I really love having all roads to myself… I just wanna say a big giant thank you to everyone for that ❤️ in many ways
There is not one cloud in my sky today ❤️ sunny … locked away have my window
Drinking coffee ☕️… with creme no sugar – but the creme has to be flavored lol ✌️ – yeah one of those … wish it was Dunkin Donuts coffee though…
But the Dunkin Donuts in California 🤨… they don’t do it right!!! Not even worth it…
I just make coffee at home or work… it be Dunkin … just not from the restaurant.
That’s because these California people are Starbucks 🤨 or Dutch Brothers 🤨 or who knows what else – all fancy…
Yeah … I would like a Dunkin from Massachusetts – they know how to do it ✌️ lol… kinda really want that now 🤨
Alright well I have to go. Back later ✌️
Ps… when I drive – and I have those roads all to myself … I kinda was hearing this song ❤️😄😄✌️ …
But tonight I watched it show up in my daughter lol 😮… she’s doing the same facial expressions I make… some of my gestures and tonight did my music thing lol … she caught me off guard with that lol … there was a conversation and then she broke into the very beginning of this…
Lol she did it perfectly, complete with clicks and all lol was so awesome!! ❤️ she dropped it like it’s hot lol … was funny
I have a mini me ❤️❤️❤️😄
When I was growing up my dad played the accordion ❤️… he could play any song on that thing… ANY!! And that’s a really cool instrument that people never think of or bother with anymore. I was always impressed with the accordion – it’s not nerdy lol ✌️ is pretty cool
He would play and us kids would dance around … it was fun ❤️ we would give him song requests and he would do it lol … anything we asked for lol
It’s been many many years since I heard him pick that up and play. I think he played once for my kids – but sooo many years ago … we still have his accordion – he only had one his whole life … he took really good care of his things. My brother has it… it kinda makes me cry to see it. It’s a little too much for me… So he just keeps it.
My mom liked music too… her and my dad liked the same stuff 🙄😄 mostly … she had her own favorites but then was whatever he liked
When my sister was little… my grandfather used to sing this to her and it used to make me laugh… that was her name… then we all started singing that to her lol…
The only part he would sing was the chorus … just fast forward to 0:50… then from there – that’s what he would sing ❤️ I haven’t heard this in forever either…
Ugh 🤨😑 I am not a fan of selfie pictures … I like being behind the camera not in front…
One of my friends texts and says miss your face and begs me for a photo… so I smiled and sent that …
To which the reply was … oh yeah I forgot you got new breasts 😳 totally wasn’t even on my mind… now it is
Not a big deal… I just wasn’t thinking of that – my mind was no where near that lol
Ok. Well then.
There IS a slight difference … I’ve always been slender – and I was more normally proportional then? I went up a little bit lol …
I haven’t been properly fitted yet… no idea on the size?? and I’ve been going braless lol (I wear tank tops and shirts just FYI) I am not topless lol
I forget about that now, and when someone hasn’t seen me for awhile… I just forget about it… it doesn’t cross my mind unless someone points it out
But I’ve always liked being behind the camera even before.
Sometimes I take pictures to keep for myself to remind I was young once lol … later when I’m really old I will be like ooohhh look how young I was lol
No one ever sees those – those are only for me. I don’t post on Facebook either (or even go on) – even though people drive me crazy to do so… I’m just not there.
They have always gotten mad at me for how I post MY pictures lol …
When I first joined … they bugged me for a year or 2 about putting up a profile picture “so people know who you are” they say lol 🤨 …you should know me already if you on my Facebook lol – I was also protective with that. Lol ✌️
So I would take thousands of one picture and make a smiley face with it lol … there … it has thousands tiny pictures of me in a smiley face – “profile pic” lol …
They did not like that because they can’t see the picture lol
Then I tried warping the picture and discoloring it… and they still didn’t like that 😄 I don’t know why such a big deal …
Finally I put a picture of myself up… when I was 5 😄😄 … they groaned but accepted lol ❤️ that’s what’s there now – but I never go on
That’s all my family and dearest friends. They want to see me – but I am not ready.
And I don’t really like attention like that… I need a break from that
I am uncomfortable with the comments … and then boobs Oh my god! Yeah so there will be no pictures lol
I have a friend who drives me crazy… anytime I say anything … he texts back “pics or it didn’t happen” 🤨😄
Makes me laugh though.
Pictures are ok, I guess but I just don’t share them usually. Not the ones of me.
I do with my brother or sometimes really close friends… or people I miss – but even that’s kinda rare right now… I just went silent. Been really quiet. Just letting dust settle
… I am writing this post and my daughter is singing “I want it that way” cause last week that was my jam lol. (She is totally into singing it right now lol ❤️ with emotion lol)
This morning I thought 🤔… I’m gonna try a day without music? Just see?? 😮… I know …sounds horrific right???
But I wanted to hit clear? Reset lol … wanted to see if I could go one whole day with no music 😮
Nope… I can not … or I am not meant to lol…
I went into the day with that plan…
But the people who know me? Lol … sometimes they speak to me in music?
Like if they are going through something, thinking something, or whatever then they will text me a song lol … I do love when they do that ❤️😄✌️ (usually they text normal – is just when they trying to really reach me lol ✌️)
Anyway… I made it through a morning without music. I could have done a whole day… but I have people who know me and are trying to catch my attention lol ✌️❤️
It works lol
Oh well. I didn’t like it anyway. I just wanted to see if I could do it. ✌️ maybe another day – I just want it back 🎶
I got up this morning to find my daughter on the couch lol …
Awww… I remember as a kid doing that, my dad would pick me up and bring me to bed. My mom couldn’t lift and would have dropped me… so my dad always did that lol
I definitely can’t lift my daughter now… I remember when she was little I could. But not now that she’s big, and I’ve had the surgeries… there is no way I could lift her now – I can’t even pick up her school backpack! 🎒
I went to bed before her last night… usually I always do anyway… I can’t stay up like these kids can!! She was watching some movie last night. I covered her when I woke up. She is still asleep
I’m not working today. Sunday’s only now. So no window to the world today. Tmrw though ❤️
I was watering my strawberry sprouts that yes!!! Are still alive!! I’ve been able to keep them alive … woo hoo!!
But I don’t know for how long or if I am doing it right?
I have 2 sprouts… I had 3 but I accidentally killed one 😮☹️ … I went to water them and the water bent that one down and it died. I learned better watering procedures since that happened.
The two I still have… one is doing amazing and just growing really good! The other one is my runt lol… still doing good but slower and smaller lol
It’s probably because it’s right up on side of pot so as I turn the pot from time to time, maybe it’s the lack of sunlight? I’m not sure … the larger one just takes off … the small one just grows slow and steady
The small one was my first sprout so I want it to keep going!! C’mon little sprout!!
I went to water them this morning and there are tiny little bugs ? Flying ? Really tiny and I only saw 3 … but I don’t know what they are? My house is clean, I don’t have any bugs or spiders or anything else currently? What are these things?? Kinda like umm fruit flies?
What are they? Can I stop them? Don’t hurt my plants!! Lol … I don’t have to put outside do I?? I like having them on my window sill. They like the sun there too.
I just don’t want bugs in them… ahhh my plants! Please don’t hurt them!! Finally I am growing plants… and I’m also really excited to maybe one day have a strawberry 🍓 lol … it’s really slow going lol
If I can keep them alive, it’s still going to be a very long time. 🤨😄 … but I think strawberries are worth it! I love strawberries!
When I was a kid, we lived in Maine for a little while… right before school started we would go blueberry picking … they have farms you can go to and they used to let you go out into the field and pick fresh blueberries ❤️ ohhhh I loved picking berries ❤️ and yum – also love blueberries
My Lithuanian great grandmother would come visit us up in Maine … she was only living a few hours away in Massachusetts… so her and my grandparents would drive up…
In Maine, we lived in the deep dark forest lol … when I go visit now I call it the scary forest cause I swear something is watching you lol … you hear things in the woods 😮
Anyway, my great grandmother and I would take walks in the forest… she would be hunting for mushrooms 🍄 … she always knew what berries or mushrooms were ok to eat, and what wasn’t … I still don’t know… but I remember being amazed how she did. But I guess she was raised to know that coming from Lithuania? Quite the skill to know wild things like that. That always impressed me.
She was really elderly when I was little… she used to walk with a walking stick. Every time they came to visit, I would get to go out with my grandfather and go find her a good sturdy walking stick ❤️
She would use that and then set it there by the door. When they would leave my mom always wanted to put the stick back outside – but I always wanted to save them because she used them lol … you can’t throw that outside Nana used that! Lol
I would take them and hide them in the closet 😄😄❤️ for when nana came back… they were always missing when she returned, but I also loved hunting for the perfect stick for her ❤️
I got a text late last night from someone I used to take care of.
Before I had cancer… I had my golf course job… but then I used to also take care of a few people (not for money, just because)
I used to take care of a woman who had cancer, I would help clean her house, cook meals, bring her to hosp, chemo, and just spend time with her.
Her kids just abandoned her so, ya know… you can’t go through that without someone… so that was me… I enjoyed my visits very much. She died though 😢
I also took care of this catholic man… I knew him and his family for years… is family friends…
He’s not married, no kids, but is elderly … he is very heavy, doesn’t have good mobility because of that… he is a hoarder…
Well they tried to get workers to come in and help him, and he would let them – but then he would get angry and fire everyone… he couldn’t keep someone more than a few months … he’s very unique. Quite the character …
Well the family couldn’t get anyone because he kept firing everybody – so I said let me try?
He let me… he likes me because I don’t judge him like everyone else does. I understand him. I am also quick and organized, plus pretty funny…
He doesn’t get to laugh a lot, but I would make him laugh all the time.
I organized his house for him, although he keeps adding 🤨 so I would leave and come back the following week to amazon boxes 🤨 … umm what’s this? Lol was funny – I used to tease him
He used to be a clock maker… so he has all kinds of clock parts and really cool things!!
He also collects umm?? Antiques? But the most beautiful antiques or most attention grabbing – I love history though so some of his stuff just took my breath away!! He needs a museum lol
I liked to listen to his stories about his family – I know his parents (his father died but the mom is still alive – in her 80’s) and I know all his brothers and sisters (there are 6 of them)
I like to hear those stories because they were also raised Catholic … heavy heavy Catholic – like me (I am not heavy heavy Catholic anymore – I keep my catholic parts to myself – and I don’t take all of it with me either)
But he has some really funny memories with that, and I know Catholic things so I can relate – and there is a small feeling of home with that?
I also like the stories because they are funny – and again I know all his brothers and sisters 😄😄 so just funny to hear.
I sometimes would have to nag him teasingly of course… but I tried to get him eating healthier because he was having medical issues – yet still wants to eat like a king lol 😄✌️
So I tried making him a meal plan with things he loved but would be healthy for him… nope never worked lol
It would only work when I was over there and I cooked lol … but otherwise I would come back over and he’d have made some casserole that was not good for his conditions lol … he is a creature of habit – set in his ways … I think he only ate for me, because he never seemed to want to disappoint me? Lol
He liked me cause I am quirky like him, I get him. I understand him and I don’t judge him. He never fired me… I helped him for a few years…
Then ya know, I got sick. I still tried to keep it up … but my doctor was pressuring me to stop everything – I was just fighting that… until I no longer could. Then I had to stop.
Once the surgeries started I had to give up everything. So that was it.
He lives far… I used to be over that way more. He was always a good supportive friend and listened to my stories too.
He used to be really excited to hear all my new stories lol ❤️
The first hour I would be there, we would have coffee and I would tell him all about my week – we would laugh… he would sit there so intrigued with the stories lol – he never left the house … he was a shut in… still is.
I haven’t talked to him in awhile. I was checking on him from time to time – but I was not able to help for quite some time now and he was going through some stuff with his house and family.
He texted me last night, so I have to call him today. I miss him. He sounded umm?? I dunno? Very lonely? in the text message … texts are hard to read emotions with but he just sounds ?? I dunno? Sad or lonely? He misses me.
They made him take another worker right after I got sick… that worker lasted 3 weeks lol
I never helped him for money, always just enjoyed the company and the connection. He understood me too. Sometimes you just do that for people … his family has always been there for me… so I do for them.
Anyway… will be nice to catch up ❤️✌️
So that’s it I guess. For now. Not a whole lot going on… weird being home on Saturday … that’s how I keep track of my days … with the weekend, kinda messes me up a little – I am slow moving today??
Friday ❤️ I love Friday ❤️ … yes it’s Friday still lol… I have30 minutes til midnight lol
Tonight was awesome as usual… little more on the mellow side than last week … cause we are all with no new stories lol
They… 😄… want me to pick an anime lol …
They all started taking about anime’s and … I will usually be all quiet, I just listen lol… then one says “mum should pick an anime”
And the rest agreed … then the convo was what anime would mom like? Lol 🤨😄
They went through a bunch of descriptions of anime’s to me lol… I know very very little anime’s – … Sailor Moon lol ✌️
All my kids are into anime… they are extremely close and video games, music, anime and pop culture things are a thing lol … it’s “some” of the ties that bind.
Anyway… they each have their favorite anime but know them all!!! I do not lol … they also each like different genres
Yeah I’ll have to look … there is just to many!! I just have to look… and I like funny … so no crying! Or I will never like anime again lol … yeah no cry ones … only funny
So we on a search to find me an anime so when we have these family discussions – I will now have an anime 😄✌️
Alright so I’ll watch an anime and then discuss it? Lol I find that little funny… but ok lol … I’ll join in
I am not a particular fan of subtitles 🤨… I miss the whole scene because I am reading and not watching…
My son says … oh well subtitles are awesome… sometimes things just sound so much more dramatic and emotional in Japanese … and then he says… when you say it in English – there’s no emotion behind it … blah blah blah
But when it’s said in Japanese, it sounds so much more dramatic or exciting.
Then he says the same sentence in Japanese adding emotion with it lol … but he purposely said the English words without emotion… he thinks Japanese is more emotion with their words ?? I have no idea – but I will learn that ✌️
I’m gonna be learning a lot lol… ok so anime
Oh yeah and then they mention… they are really quick anyway… just like few seasons, if that… sometimes only one season
Ok … so now… you want to get me possibly loving some show, that only has a short time period 😮
Oh… ok … so don’t get to attached lol… that sucks if you love it!!
But yeah… ok so don’t get attached to the show – gotcha hopefully … not sure it will be an issue with anime? But ya know things still surprise you right? We see lol
So that will be happening – let’s see what I can find ??
Ok so now I will be apart of the anime discussions lol… woo hoo … I get to be with them… and we laugh ❤️ they willingly include me lol … connection ❤️
I keep thinking of everything going on – which for the most part… I’m dealing ok… best able as much as possible. It’s not that… I can handle things life throws at me… not perfectly or anything, but ya know I do ok
And I was totally fine – until country boy broke me 🤨 I think it’s that… cause it bothers me. Alot… so I need to release that?
I met him in the fall of 2014… right after something really devastating in my life… so … anyway… we just became friends.
He is not overly close in distance to me… so just ya know a joking on text or I would get to see him when he wasn’t playing baseball… he took me with him to watch his games cause I love baseball … he would take me way out on his boat… so much peace…
When I needed an escape and I was too overwhelmed… he would just take me away? Make me forget, give me balance ❤️
So … I really liked him.
I was still cautious with things with him… just because we lead our own lives … and I put in effort with him too.
I always make him feel special, I remember every birthday or holiday… I love desserts so… sometimes I would bring something with me.
I have met his kids – who are grown as well…
But he has not met mine… I don’t bring anyone into my life … when I am sure 100% … then you can meet my kids. Until then – no one meets them… you think I am protective with myself – I’m even stronger with that when it comes to who will be around my kids. They are my heart… so I don’t want anyone coming near them, unless I know for sure. They don’t need to know unless someone becomes important to me. Period.
They have met no one… of course I don’t date people so there is that too 😄✌️
But I never brought him to meet my kids because there was just a feeling holding me back… I wasn’t sure.
I felt just guarded. I can’t really read him that well. So I don’t feel totally at ease? I can’t explain that… there was just something holding me back.
I’m just extra careful… what I went through in my marriage – I never want happening again. So I’m careful and guarded.
I never dated as an adult… I was young when I met my ex husband… 17. And then I was married until a few years ago, when it got real bad and I left. It was awful. My ex is awful… still is… and I still have an intense fear of him.
Anyway… I never want that happening again. So I’m gonna take my time and make sure it’s right.
Country boy was the first man I’ve ever let come close to me as an adult.
And he is wicked cute and hot … his smile can just melt you!! Seriously it does. And yeah he plays baseball so he’s hot like that ⚾️ … very good looking.
None of that is what caught my attention… I always thought he was just so sincere with me… and through some really devastating moments – he knew when to take me away? His peace in that caught my attention.
He always acted like a gentleman and was really respectful… we always had a fun time and laughed – I enjoy time with him. Totally.
But ummm … I didn’t feel at ease completely because we still lead different lives and he is not a man that um?? I am used to? I don’t know his type?
Sorry, I have a trust thing… I need to know you. You can’t just be nice and think that’s gonna do it for you – it’s not.
And then, he had 2 women severely hurt him prior to me coming into his life… like severely hurt him… so ya know he has his own guards – I know that… I am careful with that, because I can feel that. I can relate in ways?
But I am not going through hell again… and I want something
So whatever …
I am a certain type of person… so I dunno … I am not open to being hurt. So I just guard myself.
Anyway… back in November… he wanted to sleep with me, I said no … he got upset – told me to leave him alone … so I completely walked away. I will walk away. I will cut my losses and just let that be… it wasn’t meant to be… if he was going to be like that then I made the right decision. Bye 👋
And that was it.
It was hard. I remember all his kindness … and ya know I went through some really devastating moments … he helped me through those.
But if that’s all you want then, wrong tree. So I just walked away.
It was hard though, I was sad. But bottom line, that’s not what I want. So ok.
I hadn’t heard from him until we started shutting down… then he started texting me, putting in effort, saying sweet things … ok I will listen. He was always kind, so I can be kind because he gave me those moments when I needed it …
So ya know whatever … I was listening … people make mistakes so what do you have to say? Ya know?
Yeah, he said he misses me… he likes who I am – blah blah blah
Alright… so then what’s up? I was just guarded because there was something I couldn’t quite put my finger on??
Found it! 🤨
And this is why you be cautious…
When he came by the other day… and we went and talked… we discussed a lot of things.
He wants to see me, he wants to have me in his life 🤨 (I make that face for a reason)
Like I said, he’s different than what I know… so very country, very um just complete man?
He is a gentleman when he’s with me… he’s so sweet… thoughtful – knows how to treat a woman or whatever
It’s just the words that come out of his mouth do not match his actions ??? So I don’t understand …
I couldn’t believe what he said to me… I’m glad he said it though. Thank you for giving me a clear view. I appreciate the honesty.
So he told me… he does want me, does enjoy me, does want me in his life … ok … but then he turns around and says …
Yeah, until my shit stops working or no sex, then I have no use for a woman 😮😳 wait what??? What words did you just use? lol
That was a punch to the gut… what? Yeah umm no 🤨 what is that? What did you say?
So you want me for sex as long as that lasts and when that’s over you have no use for me?… is that precisely what you are telling me?? Yup it was 😳
Umm?? He obviously thinks I am someone else. Cause no, what use do I have for a man? I do fine by myself…
And I don’t need anyone making me feel like an object you can set up on a shelf and take down when you want until you’re done and throw away…
I am girly … I’m not the best at “man” things… it sucks – I hate doing man things… but whatever I learn sometimes … other times I will ask one of my man friends or some of my friends husbands will help me too. But only when it’s way over my head and I have no idea how to do? I will get my hands dirty, and I will try to learn what I can – I have never completely been on my own before
I was raised a certain way… for like 100 years ago but whatever … still not an object.
I am just very girly… I like cute pretty clothes … I like to look good, smell good… whatever – just what I like. I like girl stuff. I’ve always taken care of myself, stayed in shape, take care – ya know that stuff. I like make up and perfume, lace and ruffles – “girly”
Anyway… I told him no. I told him I want something specific… I don’t want just right now. And I don’t want to be thought of as a “use” … like I was a tool or something. Wrong words to use with me. But again appreciate the honesty so I could make my decision.
And then when I said no, not what I want … he said well you don’t have to leave my life either, I would like you to stay in my life
Oh? Well I see that a few ways …
First of all… I walk away from things I can’t handle or know is nothing right for me. And I do have feelings for him. Is best to walk away. Sorry it just is.
And then from his view – what’s his motive for that? Why? Cause I don’t let anyone come in and you think I need someone? You think you are my best option? You think eventually I will give in if you come close enough? What is the motive ? What you want?
Why would I entertain that when I am just there for a use?
And then – what use is he to me? That is nothing what I want… and he can’t give me what I want … so what use do I have for him then? What so I can have a man in my life? Yeah whatever
The reason I mentioned above that I am girly is because I do need help sometimes and I am a girl!!! I do most everything by myself … there are times when I need help… just saying
And ya know. My devastation through things has been really hard to stay level headed … I lost my family, I went through cancer, I had a horrific divorce. Now this. Just as I was standing up for the first time.
Whatever ya know… I don’t want what he wants and I’m not willing to settle.
Just because he’s cute or plays baseball or is good to me – does NOT mean he is meant for me. He’s not.
He wouldn’t be healthy for me… and I would just not be able to be with him either … because of his words and how he wants it… there is no way I could comfortably be at ease. And I have no interest in being a “use” like that in that way. And I have no use for him…
If that’s the way he wants to see things – let me turn that around… if I am only a use to you… then if I were to see you that way… what “use” are you to me? I’m am not getting what I want? But you get everything ? Nope
Why would you even come back in my life? I knew I needed caution still!! This is why I have caution.
He doesn’t want me to walk away… but doesn’t really matter what he wants if it’s not gonna match up.
Why would you even come back in my life with that shit? And you want me to stay? He doesn’t know who I am.
Bye Felicia … he won’t have any problems finding another woman… go do that. You don’t need me… so what’s the “use” in that ???
He also said… he doesn’t sleep around and he knows I don’t so why not? He thinks it’s perfect…
He said all this as if it were normal 😮😳 ok … so reasons why I don’t date or give my time lol ✌️
You guys suck! Just kidding – I know it’s not all … but some of you suck.
Yeah I am not ok with anything he wants in the slightest.
… and with his words – he just became useless to me?
Yeah. So ok then. Why come back in my life right now with that shit??? Rude
This song popped in my head – wrong woman … I will stay away ✌️ I’m out … his loss.
I misjudged who he was 😮 I was careful, because I don’t trust them, and I am not familiar with this area… yeah he picked the wrong woman – bye baseball country boy ✌️ … and with that he was done lol
Yeah see – sometimes I can have a little chip on my shoulder lol ✌️ approach with caution ⚠️ if you don’t hit those marks – you won’t have a problem … you say shit like that… yeah you gonna have a problem. Don’t come in my life with that.
I have so much on my mind this week… today on our walk my neighbor friend brought up what happened last summer…
Ugh – PG&E… they shut our power off for a long time because it was hot and the wind was blowing 🤨😡… and they were greedy, never bothered to fix lines … got sued for causing many really bad bad fires with their equipment… so until they fix their shit – we get to lose power
Oh please have mercy this year!!! 🙏 when I lose power – I lose water too… please don’t do that through this 😳 … I will take the fire 🔥
That’s gonna be coming once summer hits 🤨 it’s like Armageddon around here with fires in the summer 😮😳
Oh please have mercy with that this year… I am a little better prepared than I was last year though …
I have water stored away and ready … I have a portable shower I bought ❤️ I am so happy I bought that thing – one less worry on that … I will get to see how good that purchase is – you will get to hear about it lol ✌️
I have battery operated lights ready to go as well… extra batteries for that…
I will have light … water … and showers … I need to get a battery to charge things with.
A generator would be nice, but I can’t afford that. So a battery for charging things be fine… I’ve got most other things covered and ready…
I also have gotten a really huge cooler … I bought it in winter when it was so cheap…
Supposably it keeps the ice cold for 5 days… but I have a cooler so I won’t lose my food in the fridge and freezer
Oh god ok … bring it … but if they could have mercy a little this year that would be nice.. you know with the virus and all. I would appreciate power and water … oh this is gonna be tough
But… I am way better prepared this year, than last year … so let’s see how skilled I was in my preparation 😳 … preferably we won’t have to see that… but if we do 😳🙏 please let me have done good!!!
So anyway… I’ll deal with that when it hits … I am somewhat prepared… way better than last year so that helps put my mind a little at ease ? But I still would like mercy…
Bleh… the song that comes to mind with mercy – I don’t want to share 🤨
My songs are still way off?? But whatever … this song reminds me of high school 😄❤️
I enjoyed high school… I went to 3 different ones … Florida, California and Massachusetts (where I graduated)
But the one this song reminds me of … is the California one…
Lol … we used to have this strip of road … it was Main Street … it had 2 malls right next to each other, and the town had 3 high schools within the vicinity.
On Friday and Saturday nights we would go “cruisin” ❤️❤️🤟
Lol it actually was sooo much fun… all three high schools would converge on this one section of roadway … as soon as it was dusk – boom we there – Friday and Saturday nights
It completely halted traffic cause we doing 3mph and yelling out the window at our friends …
You could pull over into the mall parking lots and all the guys with the supped up cars – had the bass that goes BOOM lol … I loved the bass that goes BOOM lol – that’s hot
In summer, we would have super soakers … yeah big ole party… oh it was so fun ❤️ we really lived ❤️
Anyway, they ended up taking that party away because we blocked the roads 🙄😄😄 … they put some restrictions that if they catch you 3 times going up and down – you sited for cruising and obstructing traffic 🤨🙄😄 … it was night time but whatever – was an absolutely blast while lasted ❤️
I remember this song being blared from the Boomin cars … there were many big bass songs
Well evidentially I am incredibly young – cause I still love that bass – turn that shit up! (Well in the car – I like it loud in the car with music – sometimes lol… not always – by myself definitely!!)
Anyway… my daughter does not like loud music 😮… what????
She always makes me turn it down lol… like I’m the kid lol
And if we were up by her school… I had to have it basically off, cause she doesn’t like anyone knowing what we listening to 🤨🙄
When I would pick her up … I’d forget to turn it down and she would open the door 😮🎶🎵🎶 🔊 lol
She would instantly shoot me a look and say 😮 turn it down lol
Ok… so they cut my hours again. Now I am Sunday’s only
Ok… awww … they are slowly integrating the staff back… they had been working at home. So they returning back into office… still only one person at a time …
But ok. 😶
I don’t know if I’m ready for people? I guess they are easing me in though, so ok
I am nervous with people still… but ok…
Slowly please
Too much keeps coming in my mind this week. And then that makes me quiet.
Well anyway… I will get to stay up late on Fridays now!!! Woo hoo 10pm lol kidding … I can do later than that lol ✌️
Family night can go really long lol 😄✌️❤️
Bright side right?
Ok… my songs are way off today??? I am off? I can’t feel them? Ya know how some people love movies and can recite any movie quote at perfect moments?
That’s me with music …
Sorta… music just pops into my head in that way? For things ?
But lately… at least past 2 days… my music is off… I will still have things pop in my head … or usually know exactly what can make me feel better …
Just lately been off? I feel too much on my mind? Bleh
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