It’s been bad and is raining again!! 😮😮 is soooo much flooding!!!
We are totally already saturated 😮 and being pounded again at this moment … my yard … is a moat … I now officially have a castle compound lol … moat and all 😮 my backyard a complete lake 😮
So much flooding
And with military I understand him more and I like him a lot so… so far is going well
Ya know he’s kinda republican and stuff lol … but he’s good, he’s smart, funny – very sweet.
He just lights up to see me always!! Just his whole face lol … every time he sees me! he is totally like this:
That is how he is with me …then he just smiles when with me – except if we talk about emotional stuff – cause some of that is sad and hard.
I said to him … look I don’t want you to to have a fantasy of me or anything ? I don’t want you to believe I am something I am not? Thinking that I am certain ways … you may find me boring ? I do not like any kind of drama 🎭 I told him I am different because of what went through and then also I work in funerals – so I just like the peace
And he just said – I know who you are, I know you are different – and then he said… I want that… and he made a real quick comment about the pressure he has.
So I slowly see … he has very fast paced life… but with me he can be himself and say whatever, and then I just have a peace or whatever 🤷♀️
I make a point to always say that I need the peace because is how I keep balance and how I cope. He is aware of my trauma I tell him enough to know is a serious thing
When he is with me the world just melts away… we laugh and talk… so I think with me is lifting of pressure he normally has?
He keeps saying he wanna escape away with me lol
Yeah he needs little soul respite lol … but yeah society and media/ especially social media has severe effects on mental well being – I am not a doctor – just an observer with an opinion lol
I think is negative and causes depression – on TOP of life’s normal hits
If you only knew how freeing it is to not care 🙌❤️ not have that chatter – have freedom to be however wish to be without influence ❤️👏 mostly lol … I am influenced by those I love and admire ❤️
Anyway… so yeah
He wanted to do dinner last night so ok … but my GPS did not account for flooding??? 😮😮 omg why you not account for flooding???!!!! Ugh whatever – what kind of GPS does not account for road situations??!!
I do not go out usually – so ya know I don’t like night driving and stupid people with brights on and don’t turn off when you right there – Jeez! Learn some consideration
And he told me to take one way… but ya know … I’m gonna do my own thing lol … I will hear you, but I will think I know better lol 😄😄 🤷♀️
So I will do my way – which would have been totally fine if stupid GPS would account for flooding!! Omg everything is flooded soooooo badly!!! Like LAKES instead of roads 😮😮
I wanted to attempt so badly – but no … I know my luck when I push it lol ✌️😘 I do not want that lol
So anyway took me awhile to get there because of flooding
So I thought ok … let’s just see how he handles me?
Well … he was just happy to see me as I mumbled about that drive lol
Later we talk and he tell me … at first he was stressed cause I late but then he said he thought “this beautiful woman is coming out to dinner with me and making effort coming to see me” so he just went with it and let go cause he just happy to see me
Ahhh nice answer – nice handle
I know he is not used to my ways at all… but he does good. I am very different than he is…
But I think he wanna be little slower and free’er? Not have heavy pressure
Also he lets me take my time telling him anything about me 🥰❤️ he will ask… I am little uncomfortable with just speaking of in general cause I cry so I can’t really speak too much – so he just is fine with that.
I tell him I am still somewhat healing or coping lol , from my own stuff so 🤷♀️ but he doesn’t care
Last night he said… you are just amazing and refreshing to be around, you are not like how other women are…
Well as soon as he said that… I say… well like what?? What are other women like??
He smiled and laughed and said nah I’m not gonna tell you lol … he does not want me to be like other women and have those ideas lol 🤷♀️ that’s funny
Anyway… I don’t have fear or panic with him, is very mellow and enjoyable to be around him
He is typically high energy but I think he likes my slow speed lol
And “”California” ya know?
I’m just kidding … but I think he’s very considerate and thoughtful of how I need to be so… I like that… he is very chill with me which I don’t think is generally how is? Lol
I think my peacefulness rubs off when he is with me … he seems less tense when with me?
I like that he is different but also accepting and thoughtful … so I like that.
He can be whoever he wants as long as he allows me to also lol … I wasn’t sure if he would like how I am but he just is full in 😮
I also wanna make sure he heals for himself? But I can definitely teach him to slow the world down … I do always remind him if he needs time I am fine with that – but he doesn’t want time
I just tell him to be careful because I have history of cancer and my mom has and grandmother had Alzheimer’s … so ya know you just take life as it comes at that point but be aware cause could be thing and then that is why you just simply cherish moments … be happy with what blesses your life – know you have a blessing
We discuss things and I tell him/ he tells me and we understand so is nice … he listens and is trying to know what makes me tick … he does well – I like him 🥰 he is very romantic 💘
He not like other guys he is total gentleman always … he makes sure not to fuck it up lol … I like that … I have a rule in place that he is not allowed to buy me anything lol – I just prefer it that way – he listens but complains – whatever is a rule‼️ … not gonna listen on this one … several reasons for this rule!
You should see his smile when he sees me lol … like I said – his whole face lights up … every time! And he is just amazing to me 😮 always 😮
I do think he learns with me though lol … I like that we can be different but still get along and not have any effect … I like that a lot
He will have his ways – which I have no problem with … but just also know who I am lol ✌️😘 I will have my own ways – 2 different lives
Tonight on phone he told me he doesn’t think I am boring at all. He says I make him so happy
It’s not my personality that is boring … just how am is. I am not a “go-out’er” or a partier … I just live very peaceful quiet life balancing the death
But we see – maybe he just not see me as boring? I am funny though – I’m just quiet person
This is how he is with me:
I tell him be easy… because things make me tear up and am sensitive so easy with your heart touching things … and ya know is just sensitive
I am getting used to having someone around my life – I am still determining how that is lol … I like him and enjoy time with him but I do need down time – cause I like to just be home and be chill
It’s hard to always be driving places – but he’s amazing so I do lol … but ya know – am quirky … Am very used to shutting the world off not going out in it lol ✌️ but like I said he’s so amazing so I do.
So we see – I am taking it as it’s coming at me. Also observing and being quirky lol … I say stuff so he’s aware of things – I don’t want him having blinders on – I want to be able to heal and things and I’m gonna have to go VERY easy there
So … is an adventure. I like him alot 😊 he definitely sweeps me off my feet 👣 😮❤️
Definitely treats me like a queen ❤️