Well first of all … I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving with friends and family yesterday.
Today I sleep a lot, because I was not feeling very well. Am ok at moment but then runs me back down quickly. Doby is not happy with this lol
Omg the energy from this man! Is non stop!
Anyway… 2 of the 3 kids give me lists this year… which is good and bad
Cause I buy early and then I’m all excited so I will offer to give early – what you gonna say? No? Lol
So now I have to just not do that. It kills me to have before the time – I already gave them 1
And if they don’t get me lists – they get mom gifts and no one wants mom gifts lol 🎁 … they are practical and things I think you would love or should have lol 😘❤️
Is never what you want lol … but really awesome things to me lol … so this year 2 gave lists and one still gambles lol 🎲
We shall see lol
And then I have something else to talk about…
So… ok let me walk through this…
This guy who I’ve been talking to… he is funny and texts me and is not overbearing – pretty chill
So as we talking he mention he is former military … hmm 🤔 ok… I can be open minded – I am not typically military type – we see …
And the section of military he was in makes me cautious?
Totally totally totally appreciate the service and my somewhat freedom. Absolutely grateful
But we just see… he has already introduced me to both his blood family and to his military family 😮
That went really fast but I didn’t totally expect but knew be many people – and the way he introduce me around ? Just interesting
That was few weeks ago even
And he opens up and tells me little bits about his life which is complicated cause he has a lot of things 🤷♀️ nothing that seems overly insane but I don’t know
Last night we have a convo on text… and he make a comment about emotions lol … he is not fully aware of who he deals with lol …
So… we see … I am strong woman who does think before react – but I am totally emotion – lol … I am funerals – how you do that with no emotion? Of course I feel with emotions lol
And then … how is military man gonna handle that? I am not cut from military cloth lol
We see – he shows me a softness but then I also see hard so… not very sure
He is kind and funny and gentle towards me…
We have not spoken of politics lol … I am independent but if he military he gonna be Republican watch – we see – let’s see
We have same religion so that makes no difference – neither one of us are formally practicing. I am probably more into catholic little things than him… I do not go to church, I do not think he does either?
I just feel some of the beliefs held me back – and I do not need a church to pray to whatever I believe. I say my prayers & have my own beliefs – end of story
I have a fire 🔥… and I am strong so do not mistake my kindness for weakness because that I am not… I am woman …
Also… am not 20 so do not try to manipulate – I think too much for that. ✌️ highly cautionary ⚠️
When he made that emotion comment – immediately I say “well you know I work funerals and I do ride with emotions”
So he is aware
And especially if you attempting to come into my life!!!
No one … not one person makes in into my inner circle – my children or my people … I have never ever introduced anyone to them in regards to me being interested … no one makes it that far so I will not introduce unless I am comfortable and serious
Do not overwhelm me or pressure
Careful … I am whirlwind of life … be careful
It does not have to be totally perfect – but has to fit and be ok.
Small little side note – recently I have been watching that 48 hrs show … the crime one ?
Probably not shows for me to watch ✌️ just mentioning that – I just be very high alert 🚨 lol
I’m sorry my inner circle is my core so if you want that … you better be worth it so I’m gonna take my time.
You got patience ? You gonna plan your attack or what? So let’s see how military man holds up?
So far he is doing well – I enjoy his texts – he is fun to talk to and makes me laugh
But I am both hard and soft so… just be careful
I don’t know that I am totally at ease because when I stop and think of a relationship or going anywhere near that – oh boy does that strike little panic
Because then you are “with” someone – so I just wanna make sure that’s ok… I’m gonna watch his character and who he is – so we see
He say tonight that he wants to spend some time with me when I’m able.
Alright so… if you fall off the bike, you get back up right? Well I am afraid of that giant gash from falling 🤷♀️😘
Any time I have given someone a chance ?? I dunno? I keep little distance just because I am not rushing into anything …
But I am whirlwind type – so you have to be very careful. Easy. However – my spirit needs to be free so you can not squash or inhibit lol ✌️😘
So… we see Mr Military
I’m not sure?? I am bit of free spirit so 🤷♀️
So far he plays his cards well … makes me laugh and enjoy the convos – he doesn’t be weird or try to send me a dick pic I don’t ask for, or ask me for anything racy 🙄🤨 … he does not do that 😊 so alright … continue lol
So far he is quite gentlemanly – but we see
Let me see his umm … I want to see if he has integrity so we see
I have not spent much time with him in person – some but not a lot – small pieces of time but always in middle of things – never alone…
Is the text messages I am learning who he is. I can’t quite tell in text? That is where he can speak to me alone currently lol
He kinda steps easily as to not scare me off – can totally sense that lol
But ok – we see
I’m interested to see how he will do? So far is ok. So far, I like him. So ok… we see … cause careful what kinda girl you go after … if you can not handle that type ✌️😘
So we will just see … it’s like I gamble 🤷♀️ but I am curious and I do like him and am enjoying his personality.
I am very positive happy person – and so is he so far … he just might be little bit heavier with things ?
We will see … I will just have to gamble and see
If I actually spend time with him in person one on one – then I will know who he is lol … I can observe better and be more at ease ?
Also… I am really guarded with my inner circle – is the family I have made myself and my blood… so …
I am not sure cause I’ve never gotten to a point to consider it with someone ? I keep very separate normally … I say normally 🤨 sometimes things are not normal … I also have these crazy events that life will throw at me to test my handling lol 🤷♀️
Sometimes I do ok – sometimes I do not 🤷♀️ depends on the event lol
Military guy gonna be harder than me. I am soft so what he want ? Balance ? – be sure of what want
And again … careful – I am whirlwind
I would let my people meet someone before my kids – if you don’t pass my people – you don’t get to my kids so … good luck 🍀
You must get to that point – and pass through them and then maybe ?? Maybe … totally maybe my kids
We see – you have to be completely amazing for that – so we see
Yeah better blow my mind for that lol … we see
To hear that song makes me smile soooooo much ❤️ it reminds me of Tina Fey and Jimmy Fallon on SNL ❤️
Well I always loved that one … but only people recording it from their TV’s is what I find on YouTube lol 🤷♀️ so anyway … is awesome – that song reminds me of it and then makes me smile ❤️
Ok so… letting someone come around close I don’t know we see
I already told him I am boring but he is not listening 🤷♀️
Also… he flies so wants to show me places 😮 omg
Well … first of all… growing up … I was all over the United States if did not live there – vacationed there or through there … every year big cross country vacations and we moved every few years … I lived all over the east coast north and south… as well as west coast north and south.
I have seen many things already … I will go places and have deja vu … and guess what, there will be a photo from back then and I remember
I just went so many places in United States all the time that it began to blend – ah ok trees and mountains, deserts, plains – totally took for granted
Was the 80’s
Totally wanted to be with my friends … but I do appreciate and love the experiences and memories ❤️
Anyway … queen of hearts sir – how you gonna play those cards ? 💋