Vet …red …dog lol ✌️

First of all… Happy Veteran’s Day 🇺🇸 thank you to all those who serve ❤️ you are always thought of … Veterans Day or not … so again … Thank you for your service! ❤️🇺🇸❤️

I took today off. What a beautiful day it was too … little on the chilly side 🥶

I am really bad at reading clues if someone likes me lol 🤷‍♀️ unless you are direct – I do not notice lol 🤷‍♀️

I have always NOT noticed that – I am oblivious unless you outright say lol 🤷‍♀️ … I am not a subtle hint girl lol

Well first – I went to a friends ceremony … and then he immediately come over to me all smiles, hugged me (which is totally normal) and then kissed my cheek – which again, is kinda normal greeting – just after Covid not really 🤷‍♀️ but ok whatever

But I’m thinking it’s all totally normal, until he is introducing me around and made one particular comment to someone about maybe wanting to date me. Umm 😮 I did NOT see that coming and I try to keep always very level with no leading on!!

Evidentially I am very bad at that…

And then while we are all at ceremony … another man speaking to me… he lives near me – I didn’t know him at all, until I met today

And he’s all smiles ??? I told him I just bought the house in January but I work a lot, so I haven’t done a lot of work on it – but eventually. I’m busy lol ✌️ we were just chatting about things

And then he says well I’m a contractor builder if you need help – here’s my card – and he gives me his card. Then he says if you are free sometime maybe we grab dinner ? Ummm 😮

Do you see?? This is reason I stay away from world … I can not really handle ? I don’t know?

And that’s not all … I can’t count how many people come to comment on my hair – I never ever ever remember or think of my hair until people point it out … normally I just be normal… is not a thought to me?? Until you point it out and make a big deal.

I do not know what the big deal is???

I stop at store before going home and I was gonna get 🍜 soup… and a guy all smiles comes over and tells me “hey if you do the bigger can is cheaper”

Lol … I said thank you but that’s too much soup for just me lol 🤷‍♀️

I don’t like too much left overs – I’ll do leftovers for one time – but usually I don’t like to have leftovers

I was in front of him in the check out and he smiling the entire time… I turned to leave and he says “Hey have a good weekend” so made me look back and he had a huge smile and gave that guy look 🙄 he was nice – but that guy look 🙄

Alright well you too

See what happens when I go outside in public ?? That is partially a reason I don’t very often.

I just think that … well I’m a little nervous with those things and then also… it can be little overwhelming … I am old too so??? I thought it dies down … but no it doesn’t … sometimes I think is worse the older I get?? How the hell did that happen? I do not understand

But yeah I find a little overwhelming.

I think the red hair makes me stick out and initially noticed … the Irish – with the freckles and eyes … yeah that doesn’t help me either. It’s always a thing

So what is the draw? Am still regular person … it is hair!! Which I find very weird

Anyway… like I said is little overwhelming and what kinda keeps me to self and quiet. I don’t know if I am actually ready for anyone to enter my life in that way.

I would like that… but I don’t know 🤷‍♀️ … It’s really hard to let my guard down there.

Also… have you ever gone along in life thinking you are doing well and can handle things … but then when there are things – you are scared? Or something makes you think, remember or flash back?

Can be good and bad… but I usually keep busy… I have processed and healed mostly. I do prefer to focus on others… so I don’t have to Stop and think of my stuff. But sometimes something or someone, just makes you remember?

And then ya know – there are scars and things and last time I was 17 so… just makes me nervous and uneasy and all you people are way over my head with dating or things of that nature!!! 😩 it’s very hard – out of my world

Anyway whatever – just thinking

I do not know what is the preconceived notion about a red head… I am boring and firey 🤷‍♀️ stubborn and strong willed… funny and social but I’m quiet …

I don’t know how to explain “being quiet”

I am social and friendly and outgoing so … not quiet in that sense ??

But maybe with keeping to self? I’m quiet if you wanna know me… then I watch you lol ✌️

I have best friends who are in my life a lot … they call me all the time – we are just far from each other … but we laugh and laugh and talk about everything … I have a man best friend and a couple woman ones lol

I feel safe, loved and like family with them. ❤️ love them very very dearly – would move mountains for them ❤️

They just appeared to me and melted into my life ?? ❤️❤️❤️ when I needed that most – very thankful and blessed

Typically though I have to trust people… so I keep a distance so I can know someone. I need to know who someone is first.

On WordPress I am more free ? Safer ? Or false security but whatever – works for now. Has helped me. Maybe? or I think so? Just not all the way lol… I stay here cause I like it here ✌️ happy here 😊❤️

Anyway… that was my day off 😮

I also taught Doby a brand new trick – this little dude learns after I show him twice!! 2 times and he’s got it… I just taught him to shake 🤝 😮

Every time I teach him something that is how it is!!!

He does not get the concept of “stay” … he just wanna be right up on me constantly – he can not stand it otherwise

https://youtu.be/F82fn20bLlM