Sunday was nice chill and relaxed – plus I acted adult…
I had convo with guy… but it not go as I expect ??
I lay out everything … my mother, that I am still a mom raising a child, that I work all the time and am exhausted … that I do not typically have time to be running around having fun lol omg
I steal moments when able… and also I not used to someone around my life… I pour into work and kids – and my mom
And there are sometimes I am just quiet – I am soaking in peace that’s all – just let me lol – I’m just gonna need that.
Also I am sensitive to way others treated and want to make sure good person
But he apologize and then say however I want it he is fine with – he can be patient for me he say … he say he really like me and want to keep having adventures with me
He say that he love the connection we have and enjoy spending time with me. Loves life when with me, and then ya know he speak of life
That is what trips me up – life
I in death so much that life is glimmer – I forget life because focused on death … so he makes me remember and think about it in different perspective
He is definitely on another wave than I am, he is closer to the end than I am- so he want to fit it all in as much as possible, as much as he can before it’s over
That strikes a chord with me so I dunno 🤷♀️
I don’t know what I think?
He say he broke up with ex because she always thought he up to something or accuse him of something…
Yeah well I don’t play that game cause if I even suspect you done! No questions asked – I not dealing with shit. If you gonna be a man, then be an actual man – don’t be a boy – I leave so fast you won’t know what happened – not dealing with that shit so because how you do
And if you start to accuse me or add any pressure of that kind to me – fuck that shit – I’m out – be secure … be grown up
If you weren’t so fast you wouldn’t have to be insecure
I don’t fuckin play games so careful as you step up
And I kinda feel like he just insecure I gonna play games cause he say that
Also … if you knew me and knew my life then you would not have reason to be insecure – if you gonna move fast then yes – maybe you should be insecure
And yes I say that too.
He say he be patient and when I can fit him in he be happy with that.
Ok sooooooo 🤷♀️🤷♀️
I do have fun yes… is just chill easy fun – hasn’t really been pressure until we came back and he’s all head over heels omg
Alright so what you think ? How would you handle? What is your view? I have too many thoughts to sort
Otherwise I do nothing today – just have peace – my house is clean, everything is done ✔️… I catch up on sleep and speak to few friends ❤️ I be lazy 🙌❤️ ahhhhh in my new bed all day long … getting up for food nibbles lol … really awesome Sunday in that aspect – my day of rest ❤️
I catch up on sleep today!! Should last me for the week 🙏🙏
Ok so Monday is tmrw – I know something will come at me. Alright – cmon Monday – let’s see… just don’t kill me 🙏
Ugh Monday bleh