Washed out 😮

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😮😮

We getting hit hard!! Is flooding and trees down in my area – I’m not going to go to work tmrw. And she’s not going to school – we won’t be able to get out… I don’t own a boat 🛶

I ran to store for 30 minutes and a tree fell across my only way home 😮 … it fell before I got there – there was already a police officer there and he let me go around 🙌 … it was not fallen when I left 😮

No way we get out now. 😮😮 “trapped” 😮 I am on slight hill sorta lol

And isn’t that just a Hurricane 🌀 – that looks like a Hurricane lol … bomb cyclone 😄 … they just making sound fierce lol – it’s just like a hurricane lol

But oh boy are we being hit HARD!!

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I always loved that song with WARM rain lol ❤️✌️

But is actually like this:

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Soooo much rain 🌧

The wind is pretty fierce too – might lose power? Is continuous soaking rain coming down in buckets 🪣 💦

Rain started Friday …Rained all day Saturday … got POUNDED on Sunday … and still raining

I am flooded in so I am working from home and just called daughter out of school. So we are home today, unless we float away lol

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** No more fire danger at least 😘 … the only problem is … we been so dry without any water and now we have ALL the water, so trees get uprooted because of water saturation of the soil and the heavy winds. Should be ending today though … lol the bomb cyclone 😄😄😄 whatever … it was a hurricane lol 🙄😄 – is just slightly different because not a tropical storm lol … so then they can call it a cyclone 😄😄 – it just hits me funny 🙄😄

When someone says cyclone I think of twisters 🌪 …not hurricanes … just funny

Moving on…

Ok so… he ask me for pics 😐

He send me a pic all dressed up because he is at some family thing. And then he say “can you send one in return” ugh 😑

Because why? I wanna be equal person. What does pic matter – he knows what I look like lol … so because why? People always want pics – people soooo visual!! What would people do if whole world was blind?

Fine whatever – I send him a pic but ya know of course ..he gonna say is beautiful 🙄😑 … what man gonna be like “ewww that picture sucks” lol – no man in his right mind would do that lol … of course he gonna be like “oh so beautiful blah blah blah”

Meh pics 🙄😑 I don’t really like many pics – I am private. I feel photos are personal too

I’m all weird with stuff

The best bet is come in slow, let me know you and let develop – if meant to be will be

Also – this area has emotions all over it soooo tread lightly lol … see this is maybe where I think he won’t get it? Or I just am not ready for anyone to see those emotions. Probably that also. Because I feel panic to sincerely let someone come close.

I just feel safer by myself ??

But I also don’t stop to think about having someone in my life… it just scares me.

Of course I want that – but also fear that. 😮

And then I am also terrified of giving chance because that’s just a huge thing too

Stupid but whatever – is what is… there are still things I fear and huge emotions there – so I don’t really like to go near that.

So learning experience for both – we see

So far he does ok – I’m just very alert 🚨 lol

I want to NOT be ready to speak… and it be ok if I don’t… I do not want to speak of things – he asks me questions and I am vague. I don’t want to speak on it or share.

I know that’s how you get to know someone – but I don’t want to speak 😮

So not sure how this will go lol

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So… if he can chill without pressure… I will be ok … but he want to know stuff about me

Ugh … let’s see … I work a lot and have kids. That’s about it. I don’t want to speak anything else

I be really fast and really vague. I don’t even like that.

I just want to be quiet – so far he lets me – he asks questions, but doesn’t push… and doesn’t keep asking

We see

I don’t want any of the past defining me – so I don’t want to speak about any of it – that was when I only lived for other people… now I create my own life

Attempting to date a domestic violence survivor is not easy. So far he does ok. He has a gentle demeanor. He knows about it, I mentioned quickly and briefly, but I do not elaborate or say much else.

This is my life now so I don’t want to talk about any of past. I don’t want any emotions with that, the emotions are too deep with loss of family and cancer so no… I don’t want to speak.

Alright so we see how he fares through ✌️😘

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