The winery 🍷

It was beautiful and calm and peaceful

It was really nice – I made the reservations for 3pm… he told me he would be here around 3pm so that’s what I booked lol

On his time off he volunteers with children at a museum 😮

He said “when you told me you lived in this city – I just pictured a regular normal neighborhood… but you are really far away from people”

Lol yes …yes I am ✌️ he didn’t know we had areas like this so close to Sacramento – it’s just beautiful and peaceful ❤️

I told him, I came here because I was healing from things.

He knows my story somewhat… I go really fast and don’t really want to talk about that … I just don’t wanna say a bunch of bad stuff… violence death death death alzheimers cancer …lol that’s horrible … so no I don’t really want to talk about what I walked through ✌️ … he asks questions and I answer – but then I also move convo away from that lol

So… he is respectful of women or actually all people – so I like that

He is same nerdy, goofy, funny

He does seem somewhat stiff ?? But I know he’s nervous lol because he tells me

I like him. But I’m still not sure?

He sweet and amazing yes

He IS a stickler on rules and things – which I also like lol …

I am too but I’m more relaxed

He is little more stiff? Lol but could be him being nervous?? But I think he is that way?

I’m just really cautious because he really likes me – ok well wait!! I’m not sure I am ready for this

His messages to me have my girlfriends all swooning – because he speaks so sweetly and caring 😮

I said ooohhh let’s take pics – I meant of the scenery and nature lol … but he got all excited thinking I wanted to be in pic – so ok fine I took one with him … I have to remember when I say things like that – how people will take or think lol ** MUST BE PRECISE ** lol

We left about 5pm… he did keep wanting to go to my house because he said “we can go to your house and drop a car off and go do something” 🤨 lol

Nope not showing him where I live – no no no…

I need to make sure he is not crazy or typical – I am definitely NOT comfortable with him knowing where I live.

Oh and he’s “Christian” hmm 🤔

I do not mind if you have whatever religion you want – as long as not pushed on me… so I am not sure?? We see … that comes up alot

So that makes me really uncomfortable

I am Catholic. So I’m just reserved – I do not speak of religion. So certain things I am just quiet with – is personal matter and decision – not anyone else’s business

So I’m just uncomfortable with it.

He’s been a gentleman. Has not made any move which is good!! Except when I say let’s take pics – … he got close and we snapped it

I had fun. I like him – but I’m not sure. I am still guarded – enjoying but still guarded – not sure if I am ok with all of this. And then his age’ 😮

I am not sure I am ok with all of this 😮 … but then ..: when I start panicking … he will send these thoughtful and really sweet kind messages – very thoughtful things

His age bothers me little. I do not know if I am comfortable with that either 😮 that’s a lot of years younger 😮

See I spiral … I have fun, I like him, we laugh talk and it’s great… but then I think of everything and I’m not sure I am ready. But again his respect and thoughtfulness really get me

But we just see – I won’t see him now until maybe mid NoV? So we see how time and distance does

After we were done eating, I was tired and so was he…he had hour drive this time.

After we left winery and he went home – I drove to girlfriend house because it was gonna rain – I just beat the rain and tmrw I open the haunted mansion tmrw

Ok I have to sleep I’m exhausted as always!!