Well hello š®
So a lot transpires š®
Soā¦ yesterday morning – I had weird cryptic text message lol ā¦ someone else is cryptic lol ā¦
But it saidā¦
So umm lolā¦ I talk to sooooooooooooo many people every week lol ā¦ I give my phone number to families who are struggling through the losses, just in case they need anything – they have someone to turn to. Some really struggle
So I am like omg who is this? Lol I didnāt say that, but I had to wait to respond as my mind went through itās inside Rolodex lolā¦ who could be?
And thenā¦ do I want to know? I donāt know? I am curious but at same time cautiousā¦ so whatever ā¦
So I guessed the guy person and yes it was him lol
He asked if I would like to go to dinner – ok sure
Dinner is fine right? Should be cool? And he asked respectfully and he is sooo respectful / so I give him chance but cautiously ā¦because careful, watch your step.
Soā¦ he asked me where lol ā¦ I dunno I donāt go out lol ā¦ so I text girlfriend who goes out all the time and she gave me a place to goā¦.
It was this really awesome restaurant – kind of a hipster place – really loud and I can barely hear normally lol ā¦ so sometimes I just smiled and nodded lol because I didnāt want to keep saying āwhat?ā Lol ā¦ but other than that it was pretty cool!
It was fun.
He has good morals and treats women really well. š¤
So ā¦ he is the type to really love his woman
Oh boy!! Ok ā¦ sllllllloooooowwwww please
Now I get nervous because I am a whirlwind type – careful. You can NOT fall in love quickā¦ be slowā¦ too fast will back me off.
You gotta be chill, be interested – but be chill.
I am afraid of the whirlwind. No no
He has good morals – didnāt try anything. Was sweet thoughtful and respectful. Ok. So I will give some time. Maybe? I will see lol
So had a really nice fun dinner. We laughed and talked constantly and we both have a nerd type thing with documentaries and science lol
So he asks me to text him when I get home – I was driving hour away.
So before I got home, he text while I am driving. I canāt read texts when driving so I had to wait and he sayā¦
Ok that was sweet and nice. He is pouring it on lol
And then I replied that I was home and also thanked him and said I had fun.
And currently I am on fenceā¦ I do not know I am ready ā¦
I feel like ā¦my foot holds over the breaks šāļø easy does it ā¦ carefulā¦ slow
Itās his respect and kindness that I give time for š®
Ok so ā¦ points I struggle with:
Do not know if I am actually ready. I like slow. Hereās the thingā¦ I have peace and freedom currently and I love that- also I take care of my own damn self, and there is no stupid drama or crap – I just have peace ā¦ so š¤·āāļø youād have to be pretty amazing to enhance that
I am just nervous because I just donāt give out my time for this. So š¤·āāļøā¦ I said yes because of the level of respect and thoughtfulness
Okā¦ alsoā¦ like I said I can be whirlwind – I am full of life, and also funny and beautiful soā¦ that makes a huge whirlwind. Do not get swept up!! Think clearly lol
Then this morning – he ask to see me again todayā¦ he is coming to my area and we are going to a winery š· š
I think he wanted to come to my house and we leave a car to car pool – but I am not comfortable with anyone knowing where I live, incase turns crazyā¦ no thank you – nope not happening – I do not know him wellā¦ Iām sure heās a cool person but I am not comfortable with that.
He said was fineā¦ but seemed disappointed or surprisedā¦ I do not always like to carpool – sometimes I just like my own space. Also, I am independent soā¦ you will never ever control or anything. Am strong fighter soā¦ Iām NOT entering any realm of control – remember that āļøš
I said ok because he is being respectful and kind – and that I am ok with. I wonāt get to see him for at least a month after today. Iām trying to get a āreadā on him – but also see where āIā am with this whole thing that is transpiring because I donāt know?
This week is my work to the bone weekā¦ and oh boy do I have to!! And next week I have daughter, the following week I will be in Texas š®šā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¦ and when I come back – I have daughter againā¦ so I be going going going ā¦
And thatās another thingā¦ my time is few and far between mostly
I donāt like stress pressure either. I have enough at workā¦ So we see
I am pretty strong soā¦ can he handle it? Lol we see – I have tasted freedom and peace, so what you gonna bring to the table?
Alsoā¦ so far I do not have any kind of fire? Heās cute, respectful, kind and very similar in morals and things ā¦ but I do not have any fire ? So not sure?
Do you know what I mean by fire? I also want that.
Yeah – so not gonna be easy. š¤·āāļø I am not sure I am ready – but I will entertain and see because of again ā¦ itās his level of respect so I will just see
Oh and there is one other thingā¦ š¤¦āāļø omg
Heās fricken young!! He thought I was young lol ā¦ I am not young – I tell him that and didnāt even phase him. He is in late 30ās š®
Itās not overly young but still young. So I donāt know if I am ok with that either?
So I donāt know. I am totally not sure.
I donāt know what I am ready for – itās scary!! š®
So anyway – letās watch how he steps šāļø
Ok I have to go. Not really sure this is good idea or not?? I am not sure how comfortable I am with it?? So we see
Soā¦ can he handle a woman like that? Not really sure?
Woow…. so much has happened since the last time i read your post. It was nice to read about this guy. He seems nice š
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Oh yes! Something is always happening lol
Yes, He is very nice! Iām just not sure I am ready yet?
And he is young š³ so not sure how I feel about that either
Taking slow – it makes me nervous but we see
I give him time because heās so kind respectful and thoughtful. Very sweet
So we see. I am not sure
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Yeah… Let’s see. Who knows what surprises the future holds for us šāŗļø
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Yes very true! Life is adventure for sure!!
Hope you are doing well and stay safe šāļø
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Yeah… Life is an adventure…!! āŗļø
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Yeah i am doing well… Thanks for asking š
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