Well hello 😮
So a lot transpires 😮
So… yesterday morning – I had weird cryptic text message lol … someone else is cryptic lol …
But it said…
So umm lol… I talk to sooooooooooooo many people every week lol … I give my phone number to families who are struggling through the losses, just in case they need anything – they have someone to turn to. Some really struggle
So I am like omg who is this? Lol I didn’t say that, but I had to wait to respond as my mind went through it’s inside Rolodex lol… who could be?
And then… do I want to know? I don’t know? I am curious but at same time cautious… so whatever …
So I guessed the guy person and yes it was him lol
He asked if I would like to go to dinner – ok sure
Dinner is fine right? Should be cool? And he asked respectfully and he is sooo respectful / so I give him chance but cautiously …because careful, watch your step.
So… he asked me where lol … I dunno I don’t go out lol … so I text girlfriend who goes out all the time and she gave me a place to go….
It was this really awesome restaurant – kind of a hipster place – really loud and I can barely hear normally lol … so sometimes I just smiled and nodded lol because I didn’t want to keep saying “what?” Lol … but other than that it was pretty cool!
It was fun.
He has good morals and treats women really well. 🤔
So … he is the type to really love his woman
Oh boy!! Ok … sllllllloooooowwwww please
Now I get nervous because I am a whirlwind type – careful. You can NOT fall in love quick… be slow… too fast will back me off.
You gotta be chill, be interested – but be chill.
I am afraid of the whirlwind. No no
He has good morals – didn’t try anything. Was sweet thoughtful and respectful. Ok. So I will give some time. Maybe? I will see lol
So had a really nice fun dinner. We laughed and talked constantly and we both have a nerd type thing with documentaries and science lol
So he asks me to text him when I get home – I was driving hour away.
So before I got home, he text while I am driving. I can’t read texts when driving so I had to wait and he say…
Ok that was sweet and nice. He is pouring it on lol
And then I replied that I was home and also thanked him and said I had fun.
And currently I am on fence… I do not know I am ready …
I feel like …my foot holds over the breaks 😉✌️ easy does it … careful… slow
It’s his respect and kindness that I give time for 😮
Ok so … points I struggle with:
Do not know if I am actually ready. I like slow. Here’s the thing… I have peace and freedom currently and I love that- also I take care of my own damn self, and there is no stupid drama or crap – I just have peace … so 🤷♀️ you’d have to be pretty amazing to enhance that
I am just nervous because I just don’t give out my time for this. So 🤷♀️… I said yes because of the level of respect and thoughtfulness
Ok… also… like I said I can be whirlwind – I am full of life, and also funny and beautiful so… that makes a huge whirlwind. Do not get swept up!! Think clearly lol
Then this morning – he ask to see me again today… he is coming to my area and we are going to a winery 🍷 🍇
I think he wanted to come to my house and we leave a car to car pool – but I am not comfortable with anyone knowing where I live, incase turns crazy… no thank you – nope not happening – I do not know him well… I’m sure he’s a cool person but I am not comfortable with that.
He said was fine… but seemed disappointed or surprised… I do not always like to carpool – sometimes I just like my own space. Also, I am independent so… you will never ever control or anything. Am strong fighter so… I’m NOT entering any realm of control – remember that ✌️😘
I said ok because he is being respectful and kind – and that I am ok with. I won’t get to see him for at least a month after today. I’m trying to get a “read” on him – but also see where “I” am with this whole thing that is transpiring because I don’t know?
This week is my work to the bone week… and oh boy do I have to!! And next week I have daughter, the following week I will be in Texas 😮🙌❤️❤️❤️… and when I come back – I have daughter again… so I be going going going …
And that’s another thing… my time is few and far between mostly
I don’t like stress pressure either. I have enough at work… So we see
I am pretty strong so… can he handle it? Lol we see – I have tasted freedom and peace, so what you gonna bring to the table?
Also… so far I do not have any kind of fire? He’s cute, respectful, kind and very similar in morals and things … but I do not have any fire ? So not sure?
Do you know what I mean by fire? I also want that.
Yeah – so not gonna be easy. 🤷♀️ I am not sure I am ready – but I will entertain and see because of again … it’s his level of respect so I will just see
Oh and there is one other thing… 🤦♀️ omg
He’s fricken young!! He thought I was young lol … I am not young – I tell him that and didn’t even phase him. He is in late 30’s 😮
It’s not overly young but still young. So I don’t know if I am ok with that either?
So I don’t know. I am totally not sure.
I don’t know what I am ready for – it’s scary!! 😮
So anyway – let’s watch how he steps 😘✌️
Ok I have to go. Not really sure this is good idea or not?? I am not sure how comfortable I am with it?? So we see
So… can he handle a woman like that? Not really sure?