Twice in a lifetime 😮

I had to stop for gas today … I have to stop every 2 days or so for gas ⛽️ 🤨 whatever …

So I stopped at “my” gas station

I was pumping my gas… and when I looked up… I see that guy … he was at the door about to come over to my pump lol probably to say hello??

But then a buncha customers came so he couldn’t lol …

Awww

Well ya know, he is always very kind to me… so whatever … fine … I will go say hello – I’ll get a drink lol …

I don’t really get the feeling he hits on me?? I just don’t ?? I think he is just kind… there is a difference. (I think?)

So I went in to get a drink after I gassed up … and I could see his smile through his mask and he says hello … I waved and said hello back and went and got my drink

When I went to check out, he say to me “I recognized your car and saw you, I was gonna come say hi” lol

I just had the drink which was only a dollar and then he throws in 2 donuts 🍩 🍩 😮 (I don’t usually eat donuts)

But he says here you have these for breakfast tmrw lol

Lol dude … you don’t have to keep giving me things! Lol he is too sweet

Very nice man. I just do not get the vibe he hits on me – I don’t know I am probably very naive here??

But there is a difference I think?

Between just being nice and a nice person … and hitting on

And I don’t get that vibe… but then I think of how he is with me and then the things he does?? And I am not totally sure?? Lol

Whatever – I’ll figure it out eventually

I love this gas station though – is never crazy busy at pumps ⛽️… store is sometimes but pumps not busy when I have been there

He gave me a customer card that saves you money every time you get gas or shop there lol… so I do that and it saves me money on gas❤️❤️❤️

My gas at this gas station tonight was about $3.65… but I paid $3.40 because of that card ❤️ fricken gas 🤨 fricken California

Can’t you fight over oil again and make the prices drop – lol … or drop them anyway? Lol … if you can drop them when you are fighting … why can’t you drop them now?

Fricken gas!! And speaking of which – where is my full service!?!!!! I am still waiting on that here!! C’mon!! Why have they not brought that back!!!!!! Especially now!!!

Whatever

But also this gas station is right off the highway 🛣 so is very easy for me to get gas on way home, so no worries tmrw morning 😊

So I do love the location and the peace at the pumps, and he’s really nice 😊👍 … so easy does it though… I don’t want it to be too much and overwhelm me.

If he’s hitting on me and I don’t realize it … I just don’t want that.

I am a quiet person. At work I handle things non-quietly lol … I am social at work… that is work. They have my back ❤️

On my own… outside of work…I am quiet. Friendly and kind but just quiet.

I smile a lot and my eyes are very 🤨 telling of all my emotions, which I hate!!

If I smile – immediately you see my eyes smile 🤨 … I am Irish 🤨 I have Irish eyes 🤨 they tell everything!!! You can hide nothing!!!

If I am mad or sad same thing 🤨 whatever emotion it is – you can see it in my eyes 🤨

Every emotion in the fricken eyes 🤨 even with a fricken mask!! I need to start wearing sunglasses too 🕶 lol

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… but generally I am just quiet – I smile and be polite – get what I need and leave. I am always alone.

When he first started talking to me he was little awkward … but I also have this thing where people feel at ease with me the instant I open my mouth 🤷‍♀️

I don’t know why that happens? It has always happened and aids me at work with comforting ❤️

So I don’t know on that?? I am still observing his behavior lol … careful!

Also you don’t have to keep giving me things lol … that is very sweet but not needed. I don’t want to feel obligated ever. I will still always be honest. So just know that. I will say something if he keeps doing it. He always catches me off guard with it though. But I am also very careful.

At work today … one of my girls gave me a letter of character reference … omg – what she wrote about me ❤️❤️❤️ I don’t even know what to say I am humbled completely ❤️❤️❤️

She just also blew me away – all these letters do!!! 😮😮😮

She said so many incredible things … they all do… I am gonna censor sensor this letter, all identifiers that were in the letter – I took out.

Here is her letter:

I have know Trisha for a little over a year, when she came to work for our company as a part timer, and became full time as of December 2020. We spend 8 hours a day, in same office with desks right next to each other.

Trisha is a very conscientious employee. She is extremely kind and courteous to everyone who calls or comes to our funeral home. Trisha always looks good and is quick to come to the defense of others. She is dependable, competent and takes initiative. Trisha is not afraid to say she is sorry if she makes an error. She does not try to put blame on others.

Spending a significant amount of our days together, I have come to know her on a more personal level. She loves her children fiercely. She is generous and gregarious. One of the attributes I appreciate most about Trisha is her consistent demeanor. There is never a question what her mood will be when she arrives at work.

I am thankful for Trisha. My life is richer because of her.

And then she signed her name

😮😮😮😮 so yeah all my letters go like that … from my police to friends to school to work… all of them say things like that – which blow me away

Hmm… so… when I had my cancer – I got to see the outpouring of people come to my aid?? It was a massive outpouring which is what overwhelmed me little

During my cancer… it helped me because during my low points or scary moments those people were there

You know how they say that when bad things happen you see who your true friends are?? Well I still didn’t, because everyone was there for me!! Are they all my true friends? Not sure

But with the cancer … I got to see how loved I was when I wasn’t dead.

I wish people did that without a sickness or a death…

People should know how much they mean to you before it is too late!! Don’t wait – make sure you always say!!

And then now… here I need these letters… and they are pouring in 😮😮😮

And again… I am humble and very touched to read the things they say!! Maybe these letters just all have to be nice?? I told them please be honest.

So I am once again humbled with the support and encouragement ❤️ once again I get to see what I mean to them…

Who gets that twice in a lifetime 😮😮😮😮 I just did 😮 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I need to play the fricken lottery lol – I’m kidding I don’t usually do that

Anyway twice in a lifetime ❤️ yeah I am very rich with people in my lifetime ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Let me also add… if it was not for some of these people – I absolutely would not have survived …

I am also very sentimental and thoughtful – so I do appreciate people also ❤️❤️❤️ I do let them know how I feel

They make me feel like this:

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I am humbled and just … twice now I see what I mean ❤️ so that kinda chokes me a little?

Don’t wait for a massive event to let someone know how you feel about them… uplift them now. There is not a lot of that… but there should be. People need that… what you might think is nothing … is everything to someone else 😘✌️ ❤️

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