Ok I have my questions, I’m still organizing things though … it’s going ok…
It kinda makes me feel sick… cause I look back on everything and he has been so brutal… I am afraid to make moves, because I am afraid he will be brutal again and I have no protection. So I’m a little scared.
But ya know, we see what happens.
When I look at those files … I have to give the courts text messages and things he was harassing me with… I have to see all that… and then I remember … and then I feel the panic… and then it overwhelms me and then I cry.
But is ok… is just a moment in time and I can handle it.
I don’t think I can do anymore tonight. I need to step away from it. I have the questions. I just kinda look through to see if anything else.
I have to go to the post office… I have a PO Box… I have mail come to my address too… but the PO Box is so that I always have a place to get my mail, even if I move around. I just keep it.
I could have gone earlier, but I didn’t. I just didn’t wanna deal with the heat and people. I will go shortly… the post office will be closed and no one will be there. You can still get in to mailbox areas… and I have a key. I have keys to everything lol ✌️
And here is something else… guess who wants me for tmrw… that’s right … the Haunted Mansion!!! They want me in for 9am… I am covering for the manager. They be back after lunch… so just a couple hours. I love the Haunted Mansion ❤️
I only call it that, cause that’s what it reminds me of ❤️… I don’t know if is haunted? Lol maybe left over energy? But it never bothers me ❤️🥰❤️ …
And it’s not a Mansion … but is huge and fun!!! I love that it has secret rooms and corridors and fun places!! I love its character ❤️
So I get to do that tmrw and make some more money. They are totally seeping into my life!!! 😮
At first… was just regular… just a side job, next to the one I had at the school. I don’t have school anymore… and now they are totally engulfing my life.
I do love it, so I am ok with that.
It’s just weird… I am very protective… but here I just feel at ease ❤️ … like I don’t have to be on guard all the time.
The people are awesome, the job is pretty cool, I like learning everything, find everything exciting… so it’s good.
I like being with them ❤️ I also feel safe with them.
Plus death is an essential business… so I can still work through shut downs or whatever. It’s a must. You need that. Someone has to handle it.
So it doesn’t make me panic. And I get to be locked away most of the time. I like that too.
Anyway so yeah… working the haunted mansion again tmrw ❤️✌️
I think I just question if I am ok being around so much death? The people I work with blind me with their awesomeness lol ✌️ so it deflects from all the death.
I think I am ok with it. It’s life. And it does help me with my own things kinda?
I also take time to feel comfortable with people – but these people I feel comfortable right away!! 😮 it makes me feel like I found my spot.
And it’s perfect for me… I get my safety and security… and it’s ok I move slow or can’t do things with my chest and arm – none of that is even an issue and only noticed when something needs to be lifted – which I can’t do. But they are ok with that ❤️ we work around it ❤️ is
So far seems pretty perfect… but I probably shouldn’t say that… I want it to stay amazing ✌️😘
Anyway … I should probably throw on some actual clothes to go outside in public lol… I gotta get to the post office and thrown my trash away, which I will just drive up to on my way to post office … is far to walk and I can’t carry something like that that far by myself. Lol … so I’ll drive lol
It will take me awhile, but I plan on reading to take my mind away a little before bed
I’ll be back – I am being slow. ✌️