Ok… so I went to my law class today. Went over all the specific laws on what I can say, what we can’t say… what specific laws are regarding cremations and burials, etc.
I got a certificate from the class – which I have to give to my boss and that is supposed to be hung on the wall in the office 😳😮
But that’s not all… I now have to study what we went over today… in preparation for the California exam… so I can be licensed as a funeral arranger in the State of California.
Ok … so flash cards then. These will not be easy to completely memorize – I will need constant flash cards.
And umm … then they talking to me about getting AA degree to get Funeral Director License 😳😮
So ok… I didn’t totally expect my profession to be “death” … not like that … not all neck deep in it 😳😮
Ok let me think here…
It will be all death all the time 😳😮… I could do that right? 😳
I would have a “career”… just like that 😮
I never thought or imagined it would be this!
Ok so… death… this totally fell in my lap completely!! 😮 what just happened? 😮
So my life would be filled with death… I could do that right?
I have high spirits – all these other amazing women are supportive and have high spirits also!! I fit in sooo smoothly with these women – they are amazing ❤️
It’s a peaceful kind of job in some areas, and I’m good with empathy. I am also OCD with details when I do things.
I didn’t really know what direction I wanted … do I take death??? 😳😮
Death is not something I planned on totally sinking into 😳 I just thought be a second job while I figure everything out?
I am currently the Administrative Assistant …
At the time I got this, it was a side job – next to my school job…
After this exam… I will be a funeral arranger 😳
And then I keep going… I didn’t expect death to be a big part of my life at all… not like this!
Totally did not see that coming … it’s good maybe? … I’m just a little thrown off.
Every time I take something … I aim for it because I believe it will be an asset in some way?
I did that with the police… I knew I would be safe with them, I knew that would be good on resume, and I knew they be the fastest way to know the community and get connections… I knew they would be my spring board…
The golf course job fell in my lap… that one I hated at first… I was stiff in the beginning lol … I was really shy and used to avoiding men, alcohol had caused so many issues with my ex… so at first I hated that job… I made myself give it a month- then reevaluate …
My boss had my back there – and I had fun… I loosened up … I laughed everyday, loved my golfers!! Had so much fun in that job… I ended up working there for 5 years before I got the breast cancer … they still ask for me ❤️ that job lifted my spirits
Then I aimed for the school… I knew at a school, I wouldn’t be hit on… and wouldn’t have to deal with that at a school.
I was right… I could be at ease there – I didn’t have to have my guards up so high at school and those kids were so full of life and brightness ❤️ god I miss those kids! They brightened my world even more!!!
But I needed another job in addition to… I wasn’t surviving.
I stopped for a minute and thought … I went through so much loss and devastation … maybe I would find peace at a funeral home and it could help me get through things and also help others through things
I needed something with peace and something that I could use empathy with.
It’s been a great peace to me. So far … I really like the job… and I love everyone in my network with this job – they are amazing women… very supportive and happy… I fit in so perfectly
My life just leads into things …
I just didn’t expect it to lead into death lol 😳
For now… I’m just going to see what happens.
Definitely did not see this coming – Totally fell into this.
Could death possibly make my life brighter? 😳 I never ever saw death as opportunity and now …maybe? 😮 whoa 😳 that’s a little mind blowing…
I guess someone has to do this stuff right? And I do fit in… which is really weird too!!!
And it is something that effects every life …
One thing though… death doesn’t take a break… it does not stop just because it is after hours, and death does not take holidays or time off…
Death comes when it wants to – you have no say… death will own me 😮
And it’s already seeping into my life… one of my friends called me earlier to ask me about the 5 stages of death 🤨… and added “I figured you would know because you work at a funeral home” 😮🤨 lol
So ok then… did not expect death to be knocking at my door like this lol 😮✌️
Class went well. I just question if I want my life so filled with death? That’s a little weird to think of it like that.
I’ll be back when able… I have to prepare more … but I will read probably on Saturday ✌️